It's been quite a bit since I've written here. To much has happened for me to write. But please read this, look between the lines. Hear my desperate voice begging for something. Just read why don't you.
They say that if you love something set it free and if it was always yours it'd come back...
That quote is complete bullshit. I've let go of you many times and you've come back but what are you doing right now? Falling in love with a girl who sometimes doesn't even bother to ask if your okay. That came out so mean fuck. Let's start over.
I do realize I've hurt you, I do know that. But you must understand I hate myself for everything I've done to you. Every time I hear about what you went through I cant help but want to cry. As much as I hate it, I still want you in a way I will never have you again. I want to be able to have you laying on my chest while Falling asleep. God I hope you didn't hear when I'd recite poems from William Shakespeare while you slept soundly. Many came from Romeo and Juliet.
Listen to me lover boy, I'm still here. ready to sit and listen to anything you have to say. If you want to talk about your day, your sister being a bitch to you or even your dog making your day. I know you don't love me but I don't care. I'm still gonna care for you as if you did. Which means I'd be caring a lot. That also means I'd walk away from your life if that's what you'd want. Because right now, I don't know what you want me to do. I don't know if I'm a bother or a complete idiot. So tell me, tell me what to do. Because right now I'm a fucking wreck listening to this Lewis Watson and remembering everything. Every little memory. And I can't take it..
