The Confessions of an Insecure Girl...

Chapter two

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"Music is the soundtrack to our lives, it's where we've been, where we're going, and everywhere in between "_Unknown.

The first time I read this quote, I didn't really understand it. The fact is you won't until you find a song that perfectly matches the situation you are in. You have to keep your eyes and ears open, but when you hear it, you are completely open. You sit and take it all in, lyrics, melody, beat. You finally feel like someone out there gets what your going through, and someone truly understands you. It’s like when you're lost, and somebody gives your directions. A song that you connect to is just directions for your feelings. That song for me right now is All too well by the marvelous Taylor swift.

See there was a moment in my life a few days ago that I wish I could push right out of my life. I want a time machine so I can go back and not live that moment. If I didn't hear it, I could pretend it didn't happen. I could go back to just being me. I could sleep at night without a worry in my mind. Maybe I wouldn't wake up crying my eyes out. Maybe If I hadn't lived it, I'd stop going to bed at three in the morning so I can put off having to wake up, and face the next day.

But the thing is, I was there, I lived it. I was there, i remember it  all too well. In fact, I remember it so well I could act it out to you if you asked me to. I don't want to be able to do that. I would much rather not have had this happen to me at all. But I can't hide from it, it's happening and now I have to face it. it's just that, I'm kind of....scared.

But since music is the soundtrack to our lives, I have decided to use music to help me get through it. Music has a power over us that's bigger than any of us have ever tried to see. Music can change the mood your in, and bring out hidden emotions you may not even known that you had. Did you know that there's such a thing called music therapy? Well there is, and I really love the idea of it. People who have suffered, and are suffering from tragic, painful events in their lives don't always respond to talking. But give them music, and they can tell you their life story in one little song.

So I want you to try something, when your in a great mood, listen to a bunch of sad songs, and see where it leads you, and vice versa if you're in a bad mood.

The greatest  power music has over us is motivation. Every wonder why people who are working out or need to get something done listen to music? It's because having it in our ears gives us a reason and reminder to go on. It pushes us to great heights.

Music is going to be my motivator, to help me through this situation. I want you to maybe try and find your own

motivational song or two. Who knows maybe you'll accomplish something great.

xoxo_Theinsecuregirl

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Cassie P.O.V

"Come on. They have to be in here!" I muttered under my breath t. I was bent down looking under the piles of junk at the very bottom of my locker, literally leaning my head in it. I was frantically looking for my headphones. I was so frustrated I stood up angrily, forgetting the chef at the top of my locker. Thud! You could hear it loud and clear it loud and clear in this empty hallway.

"Ahh" I let out as I pulled my head out of my locker. Instantly I put my hand on the top of my head.

 But as I did I lost grip of my binder, Which of course had to be open right now. A boy I didn't recognize was just down the hall when this all happened. Most likely from hearing my shriek of pain. .

"Holy crap! Are you okay?" He asked as he skidded to a halt right in front of me. I was in a lot of shock. I took a second to realize his hands were on me, and he had the biggest look of worry on his face I had ever seen. He was very cute. He had short blonde hair buzzed on the side, and layered on the top. He was fit too! His white t-shirt really showed off his muscular arms. His eyes were green and his lips a very soft pink.