It's kinda like flying, except I'm not. It's like I have the sensation that I'm floating on air, when really, all I'm doing is tumbling down. I'm falling head over heels, turning and twisting in the air, and I'm so excruciatingly happy because I'm on top of the world, because I don't realize how closeI am to the ground. That is, until I finally hit it and everything I thought was real, wasn't. All that's real is you.
You're the one who kept me in the air for so long. Floating in our laughter, and calming me with your smile. And if at any time I started to think something was wrong, if any time I missed having my feet on the ground, you were there to hold me, to fly with me. You tumbled down with me, dancing through the clouds and guiding me, even though we were both flying with broken wings. But it only takes one turn, and everything changes.
One wrong twist, and we crashed head-first into the ground, and the whole world had changed. Everything is different now, everything but you. You still hold me, comfort me, tell me everything will be okay even though you have no idea how truly terrified I am. I smile, I stand, and I shake the dirt off, but really, everything scares me now. After all, how could something so beautiful, so graceful as flying, end so painfully?
With every move you make, I cringe inside, and yet my heart flutters. Each smile makes my brain stop working. And every touch, every kiss, sets my whole body on fire. But I've been here before, and I've experienced all of these things. All of the feelings, the sensations, and there was never a problem before. Nothing had ever been this strong before, its as if you are directly tied to every beat of my heart and every thought I will ever have. And its frightening, but you get it. Because your eyes are just as scared as mine, no matter how much you don't want me to see it.
But what you don't notice, is that with every move, every smile, every kiss, with every word you say even, that you are healing me. You're piecing together the puzzle in my mind and putting together my broken wings. You're saving me, so that I can fly again. Little by little, everything becomes more natural, and it doesn't hurt so much.
Then one day I realized, that I'm not broken anymore. And when I look at you, I see that you aren't either. That the two of us were never flying. We were falling.
And like an arrow to the heart, I see,
I love you.
