Love Me Like You - Pesy

Chapter 2

I walked into the studio holding Hatchi to my chest. I didn't normally take him to work with me but he looked sad when I was putting my shoes on to leave so I grabbed his collar and took him with me. I was about to walk into the writing room where we were meant to be spending the day but heard Jesy and Leigh Anne talking.

"I don't know, Leigh. It just feels weird. She was so clingy when she was at my flat the other week. I love her, but not like that."

It didn't take me a moment to work out they were talking about me. I felt my heart in my mouth. I was clingy? I knew I hugged her a lot but I didn't realise I was clingy. I continued to listen.

"Yeah, and I mean, you're both engaged. I know she's been having problems with Zayn but I don't think she'd be as stupid as to try and get between you and Jake."

I sighed quietly to myself, knowing that myself and Zayn were on the verge of breaking up whereas Jesy and Jake weren't. They'd never break up. They were engaged as well and had their wedding date set for the 22nd of August in a couple of months. I welled up but just pulled Hatchi closer to me.

"Neither would I. I'm not sure. Would you be able to speak about it to her for me? I would do it myself but I don't want to make things even more weird between us. It's already  pretty awkward between us."

I frowned. Awkward? What the hell was she talking about?

"How do you mean?"

I nodded to myself at Leighs question. I moved closer to try and hear better.

"She tried to kiss me. And I don't mean a little peck on the lips. I mean a full on kiss, with tongues and everything. She was half asleep, I was awake texting Jake even though he was just in the other room and she rolled over, mumbled something about loving me and tried to kiss me, while full on groping my boob. I thought she was joking at first but she was persistent. She forced herself on top of me and tried to get her hands up my top. I told her to get off but she wouldn't. I heard Jake coming through and y'know he can get quite protective when he thinks someone else is coming onto me and I didn't want him to start shouting at her so I quickly pushed her off. Once he came through I just went and slept on the sofa with him, no way was I letting her do that again," She sighed.

I was frowning and shaking my head. I don't remember doing that. I would never, ever do that. I knew she loved Jake so much and even though I was extremely jealous of him, i'm happy that she's happy. I would never try and break them up, I wouldn't want to force Jesy to be with me. If we are meant to happen then it will happen naturally, it won't be forced.

"Okay, I'll talk to her later. Anything specific you want me to say?"

I bit my lip in anticipation, I knew i'd probably have to prepare exactly what I was going to say.

"I want you to get her to admit to any feelings she has and if she does have them, then I need you to ask what her intentions are. Like if she's planning on breaking me and Jake up, or if she is going to try and kiss me again."

I welled up and this time I could not stop the whimper escaping my mouth, making Hatchi look up and lick my cheeks. She actually thought I was going to try and break them up? That hurt me more than the harsh words on Instagram ever could. I decided just to pull myself together and walk into the studio like I hadn't just heard what they had been talking about. I took a deep breath and walked into the room, "Hey girls!" I grinned. Leigh jumped up to hug me but Jesy stayed where she was. Hatchi ran over to her and she smiled and patted his head.

"Hey my little teddy bear!" She picked him up and cuddled him and he licked her face. I just looked at her, waiting for her to even acknowledge me but she didn't. I sighed and forced the tears back and sat down next to Leigh Anne.

We waited a while for Jade and after she arrived, I pulled out my laptop and started to go through some song ideas I had come up with the night before.

"So, I've got this one about missing someone you've lost, this one about how much one person can affect your life, and this one about not being able to love the person you want to."

Jesy looked up then, "What was that last one?"

"Not being able to love the person you want to," I didn't make eye contact with her.

"Oh," She nodded and looked back at Hatchi, "let me hear it?"

I nodded and started to play the demo I had recorded last night.

'When you hold me in the street, and you kiss me on the dance floor,

I wish that it could be like that, why can't it be like that,

cause I'm yours,

We keep behind closed doors, every time I see you, I die a little more,

Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls, it'll never be enough...'

I could feel myself welling up so I turned slightly, away from Jesy, and looked down at the ground.

'It's obvious you're meant for me,

Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly,

Every second, every thought, I'm in so deep,

But i'll never show it on my face.'

It got too much and a small sob escaped my mouth. I heard all the girls moving suddenly and I felt someones arms wrap around me. I could instantly tell they were Jesys and let myself sink back into her. I heard the demo stop playing and then heard Jesy whisper, "You take a moment outside, we'll listen to the rest of the demo."

I nodded and smiled at her and then got up and went outside, followed by Hatchi. I just stood there staring into the distance. It was so obvious that song was about Jesy. I'm so stupid sometimes, why did I think writing a song about her was a good idea, it just makes me seem even more desperate. I then felt my phone vibrating and looked down to see it was Zayn. I smiled a bit to myself and answered, "Hey, babe."

"Hey, listen, I know we planned a romantic meal tonight but the boys, well, they offered me to go to a football match and I haven't been to one in ages so can we postpone the romantic stuff until tomorrow?"

I sighed, knowing he would probably take rain check on tonight but decided not to make a fuss,"Yeah, sure, whatever."

"Thanks, babe, love you."

"Love you too," I hung up the phone and just slid it into my pocket. I welled up once again and sat down on the bench. I started singing to myself but was distracted by the door opening. I looked up to see Leigh Anne. I felt my heart go into my mouth for the second time today. I wasn't ready for the questions.

"So..." Leigh Anne started, "What's going on?"

AN - Thought I'd make this chapter a bit longer, hope you enjoyed!x