withdrawal | seokjin

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Toni

As soon as the words came out my mouth, I sighed.

A ball formed in my throat and it wouldn't go away.

The tears welled up and blurred my vision.

I pulled the car over and turned it off.

Jin's stare burned into my skin to the point that I had to leave the car.

I didn't know where I was going but it wasn't far.

As soon as I was a decent distance away I screamed.

I screamed in anger, sadness, and guilt.

I was angry that Namjoon still affected my life til this day.

I was sad that his best friend lost him.

I was guilty that I was the one to get rid of Namjoon.

Tears cascaded down my face dropping onto my shirt.

Hiccups left my mouth as I tried to calm down.

Looking up, I was mesmerized by the hues of the sky.

Different shades of red, orange, and blue swam across the sky.

The sun had begun to rise and light up the world.  

I wish I was like the sun, millions of miles away from this hell.