You know those moods where one thing just sets you off into something like anger or happiness or sadness. Well I've been stricken with anger but just like sad anger you know?? I feel like I'm such a slow down and people would be better off but at the same time I know they won't be and I want to be on my own it would be better for everyone but I'm to young and maybe that's why I want to join the army because everyone is on their own but still treating each other like brother and sister and I just wanna leave so bad I don't wanna die. Quite the opposite actually but school is so stressful and I feel like I'm emotionless but I also wanna cry and scream but tears won't come and when I get older I'll never find someone to marry bc my personality is bland. I'm not girly I hate wearing makeup and pink and dresses and this is why I never tell anyone things like wanting to join the army. stupid gender roles. stupid /stupid/ gender roles I HATE THEM SO MUCH people are just soooOoooo shocked when they see I'm strong and soooOooo shocked when I don't flatten or curl my hair all the time and are surprised when I say I don't care if I'm wear men or women's clothes and question me when I see a jacket with a cool pattern in the men's section and say I like it. I question myself ya feel. Like am I just the weird one??? I don't fit in to the social norm, is there something wrong with me???? And i need to get out more but I just. If I talk to an adult I don't know very well for more than .1 seconds I starts getting frazzled and any longer I start to cry a little and its so hard like I don't have social anxiety I'm just shy I guess and people are always like 'oh it's not that hard just got up and ask what isle the food is in' and thEy dOnt knOw TOOPPDJDJDJDJDJ. but I have escapes from stress people looking at me when I say something weird. And it's nics but I feel like if I tell anyone else than other people who like the same things I'll e made fun of but on a side note I have so many fandom a honestly
Tøp
P!ATD
NCIS
Arrow
Flash
Sherlock
Doctor who
Supernatural
Attack on Titan
The list goes on but message me if you need a person to scream with over any of the fandoms above and I also really like history and all the wars and stuff are really interesting to me but all the homework and tests and quizzes are just to much man and I'm so bad at school IM JuST So DoNE
