[6:00 pm]
I walked down the stairs and looked at them niggas sitting on the couch.
"Bitches, if y'all want food take y'all asses to the fucking table," They looked at each other then back at me. "Oh, so you don't want food? I'll take my ass back to my bed." They ran to the table.
I started cooking like I was in a restaurant; making it all fast and delivering that shit. I stopped for a second while everything was at a standstill.
A tear fell from my right eye.
"Jai, what wrong?" Roc questioned.
"My eyes burning. But when I came home I was mad and hurt because this girl in NC told everybody even the Internet that I be skeezing. That's a lie I've had two devoted boyfriends. To be honest, Princeton was my first kiss; boyfriend; love. I called my best male friend and he asked me for top! TF! You supposed to be my nigga! But, you listening to that bitch I don't like."
I fixed there plates and them niggas started grubbing. "But honestly, fuck that bitch because I don't even fuck with NC so... But if TM starts saying slick shit you got me right bae?" He nodded with his mouth full. "Good."
"Ready to go on tour?" Prodigy questioned?
"Uh. Yeah. Sounds exciting." I said.
"Really."
"Yes and no. Shit sound stressful af. Since I'm part of the team now; Keisha'a got me doing photoshoots, MB cams, concert pictures, and managing y'all twitter and Facebook account."
They nodded.
[3 Days Later; 3 am]
"Babe wake up." Prince whispered but, I didn't hear him. "Babe." He said a little louder.
"Mmmm!"
"Come on." I shook my head. He kissed my spot on my neck then started to tickle me.
"Ahaha! Okay!"
"You don't gotta get dressed just grab your bags." I poked out my bottom lip and nodded. He kissed my lips and I smiled slightly.
I had on sweats so I just put on flip flops. I grabbed my purse and a small duffle bag with my clothes for the day. I dragged my suitcase down the steps and outside. I walked on the bus and to the back and laid down on the couch.
"Bae, why didn't you lay in my bunk?" Prince questioned.
"Because you're gonna lay there." I said without looking at him.
"I can lay out here. You go lay in my bunk."
"No," I looked at him, "I'm fine, really." I turned back around and fell asleep.
[Las Vegas; 8 am]
I slowly opened my eyes and looked around. I examined the wall in front of me. There was band logos, pictures of Prince's mom, pictures of Prince with friends and family, and Pictures of me and Prince. I smiled at them and rolled back. Ahh!
"Prince?" I was in his arms. "Good catch." He laughed and stood me up.
I put on a flowy teal top, black skinnies, and teal Lady Peep Louboutins. I was trying to be dressy/ businessy *sigh* think I failed. I grabbed my black Betsey Johnson Purse. I walked to the front with the guys and I got a call.
[Phone Call]
Jai: Hello?
Lady: Yes, Is this Jai Santiago?
J: Yes.
L: This is Lauren with Brandy Melville and we heard you were in Las Vegas.
J: Yes, who told you that?
L: Your mother. But we were wondering if you could come model for us?
J: Really?
L: Yes, at 10. I'll email you the address?
J: Yes, but I'm at work.
L: Just reply to the email with yes or no.
J: Okay.
[End of Phone]
We stepped off the bus and I walked beside Keisha. "I got a modeling job at 10. Can I go?"
"If you finish everything on your list." She shoved the list in my hand.
"Uh, okay."
[List]
Behind the Scenes Photos
5-Minute MB Cam
Update TM on FB and IG
Update MB Website
I can do this.
[9:20]
Finished! I walked from back stage toward the entrance. I felt my phone buzz.
"Hello... What mother... Why are you calling me? I left NC for a reason... Chris Brown wants to talk to me?!... Model Black Pyramid and do a feature on his new song?!... Okay just give me the number... Thanks... Since that's all bye." I hung up.
I don't want anything to do with her or NC; I hate it there...
[1 pm]
I sat in Princeton's vanity in is dressing room and looked at the pictures from the shoot. Tears fell from my eyes as I looked at myself in these gorgeous clothes.
"Knock Knock." I heard Miles say as he and the guys walked in. I looked at them then back at the pictures. "Jai, are you crying?"
I took a deep breath.
"What's wrong love?" Prince said.
I laughed, "Nothing, I just... Looking at these pictures; I finally feel pretty."
"You've always been pretty, Jai." Roc said. I smiled and the guys spoke and nodded in agreement.
My phone began to buzz on the counter and I picked it up and answered it without looking at who it was. "Hello... Mom?.. You miss me?,"
The guys smiled at me because they know my situation with home. They don't know everything though.
"You miss me?! You didn't say you missed me when you married a felon; you didn't say you missed me when you drunk all the time; you didn't say you missed me when you and your husband left me at home alone with no food, no money and, no communication with the outside world, you didn't say you missed me when you let him......." I hung up.
"Jai?" Prod said softly. I hopped out the director style chair and moved my hair out my face.
"Guys I-- I can't do this right now." I ran to the bus, laid in Prince's bunk and, cried and cried.
[5:30]
I walked through the entrance wearing a mint flared dress, a black blazer, and black heels. I wore my black heart Betsey Johnston cross body and my camera around my neck.
I walked into the reception/ eating hall. "Hey Jai."
"Hey Neico." I smiled hiding my real pain.
I walked to the table the guys were at and sat on Princeton's lap. "Hey Jai." Ray said. I smiled a little.
"You okay?" Roc said.
"Yeah."
"Was all that you said true? Why would they--" I cut Miles off mid-sentence.
"Actually guys, can we not talk about it please?" They all nodded. "I'm gonna excuse myself." I heard Princeton's footsteps as he followed behind me. I sat down and took a deep breath.
"Babe?"
I looked up at him with tears forming in my eyes.
"She's done so much to me. I moved to get away. I've been gone since I was 14. Going from house to house; apartment to apartment." He looked at me sadly.
"I've survived without her so, why does it hurt so bad?" I broke out in tears and he ran to me. He embraced me and held me.
I've always had a Fuck That Bitch mindset.
I think I'm broken.
