At the same time, Tarja was happy and angry. After all, what they've done, how could he come to her so quickly. "What the hell are you doing here?" Asked Tarja angrily, but her hands were still shaking with the shock."Just go" She was going to close the door, but the little blonde guitarist stopped her. He held the door and entered the room
"Will you ever get bored of this?" Asked Emppu and as always he put his hands into his pocket. It was so hard for him to come to her. It's been so long. After marriage with Marcelo, even natural-born comedian, little hobbit Emppu, couldn't get a word out of her anymore. They were best friends from school and where they are now. Tarja hates them all and can't even realise that she was the reason for all this split between Nightwish and her. "It's been so many years and you...."
"I'm saying one and the same all day long" Tarja muttered "And what Emppu. You don't understand anything. Nobody knows and that's the problem. You guys threw me out of the band like a trash and you did it with the letter. You threw me out of the band, which changed my life, which was a big part of my life and then four dumbasses wrote a pitiable letter and so many years of friendship was over" Emppu was surprised when she started sobbing "I lost the most valuable thing in my life you..... You.. Hit me in the back with a knife. And... now.... You're coming and asking me..... If I'll ever get bored of this?" Tears were streaming down, and burning her face. When Emppu saw how she was suffering and realised what he had done, he immediately hugged her and held her tight. He locked the door behind him so no one would see them.
" And proud Tarja is crying in my arms," said Emppu pulled back and smiled at her. "I don't want to fight because of our past I'm..... I'm here just because...." Tarja interrupted him
"Because.... Of what?" She sobbed again and looked at him with her green eyes.
"Because I need my friend back, I know it's too late, but... you know it's never too late." He smiled again." I missed you" Tarja just smiled back "I know why you feel like this. You can't hide anything from me" He said let go of her, wiped her tears and sat with her on the bed. Tarja was very confused; she avoided his look. Emppu started again." I agree with you; we are all guilty. We should have talked to you, but think Tarja, then why we wrote the letter, it was easier. Last two years you weren't talking to us because of your lovely husband" When he mentioned Marcelo's name Tarja lifted her brow up."Okay, Okay, I'm sorry" he added quickly and shook his head. "We were in the same band Tarja and you...."
" And you guys still don't understand why this was happening right?" She asked and lift her head up. "Remember how Tuomas was behaving, when we were recording the second album... not only Tuomas you too Emppu," She said with a weird voice.
"He already paid because of that. I know why you were staying after that or why you joined the band. You had a chance...."
"He had his chance too..." Tarja interrupted him and looked down at her hands.
"For god's sake woman let me. FINISH" Emppu sight and continued "Then came Marcelo and he ruined everything. Our Tarja disappeared." He said sadly.
"He only showed the truth" Her Icy cold tone was back again. Emppu's heart was clenching. "Truth which was a lie, " he whispered. "He made you hate the person who you loved most, who was your best friend" Tarja turned her head away she was avoiding his look and after some time, she said with trembling voice
"I've never loved him."
" You're lying yourself Tarja, only yourself," Emppu said "If you want, we can continue like this, okay, but I came here, because I wanted my friend back, not because of your relationship with Tuomas. I know everything Tarja and you told me once at the party that he was your first love."
"I was drunk and it was long ago."
"Drunk people are telling the truth, remember that, " He said, smiled to himself one last time and left.
'Maybe he is right' Tarja thought and sight.She stood up packed her things, locked the door and went down in the lobby where guys were waiting for her. Alex came to her.
"Tarja we've been the friends for a long time now and I'm worried about you. You've been acting strangely and I just saw Emppu here, is everything okay?" He asked worriedly and helped Tarja, took her luggage and went with her to the bus.
"Yeah.... I don't know... maybe" Said Tarja confused.
"Look if you need something I'm here okay?" He said and smiled at her.
"I know and I'm thankful," She said and set in the bus. She was still thinking about Emppus words ''You are lying, only yourself" He was right. 'No matter how long it's been I can't forget him, ever if I'm married to Marcelo, he's an amazing man but he's not the right person, BUT ALSO I CAN'T FORGIVE TUOMAS' She thought. 'What's wrong with you Tarja' Tarja shook her head. They already were in the arena. She got off the bus and went to her dressing room. Changed her clothes, made make-up and was just sitting there and waiting her turn to perform.'It will be difficult to perform tonight.'
"Meh..." she sight and looked in the mirror "How silly you are Tarja, I still can't believe that old feeling are awake now." She laughed at herself "Damn maybe he won't even come why are you so nervous?" She saw Floor behind her in the mirror. Tarja turned to her and begged her with her eyes not to ask anything.
"Are you ready?" Floor asked
"Yeah... Sure" Tarja lied to her Floor smiled.
"Don't worry he's not coming"Said Floor and sat beside Tarja. "It's funny, you know, legendary Tarja is nervous before the concert. It was you, remember who was calming me down and now I have to calm you... it's strange " Floor laughed. "It's not strange sometimes I'm nervous too."
"I know... I know I'm just saying... Emppu talked to him" Told her Floor sadly.
"I don't care Floor why you won't understand and why you're even telling me?"
"Two minutes ago it didn't seem like this" Floor didn't give up.
"Please stop ... it's too much for one day; I don't care about him... I love my husband and finally get it. He's an amazing man. We've been together for 14 years and I'm happy now...."
"Oh. First of all, calm down okay? And second ..." Floor said, "If you're happy with your husband then why you were throwing things today and why you said that old feeling is awake? After you saw him you're acting strangely and if you are happy why is this happening to you Tarja?" She asked little bit angry.
"You're my friend Floor and I don't want to fight with you right now. Listen tomorrow, after the concert I'll go back to Argentina and everything will be over and now I'm begging you please leave me alone I need some space." Floor finally gave up and left without saying a word.
