Metanoia

Is this really me?

"What does it mean though?" I say trying to figure out what I just experienced.
"Maybe it's just some figment of your imagination trying to tell you to set out on that quest and search for her." My therapist says as she looks so intrigued in what I just told her about the dream I had.
"Look for what?... I don't know where to stop and honestly I don't want anything to do with those people. They abandoned me and that's the end of it." I say in anger.
"You can't stay mad at the past Luna .... Try to at least search their names on the Internet and see who they are. It will help your grudge." Said the overly excited therapist. And yes I do have a therapist because according to medical records I'm "anti social" and what not. But according to me I'm just overly quiet. I do not need to associate myself with those who will just hurt me in the end. Pathetic losers.

"I'm sorry but I won't.... Maybe I shouldn't have told you about it.... Maybe I over reacted." I clench my teeth in regret
"Luna. Not only as a professionally trained therapist i tell you this but also as a friend that has been in the same side of you. It will do you good." She said. I trust her.. It's strange but she's honestly the best therapist I've had and trust me I've had a lot..
"... Ok I guess...." I try to response
"Great ... But our time is almost up. So I'll see you next time and I hope you share with me what you found." She insist
"Yup. See ya" I say storming out the room.

I was in lunch sitting with Katie. We were eating some kind of "tacos" but honestly that meat tasted like pure dog shit. She ate it though but I wasn't surprised she loves food. I do to trust me I love it but I don't like dog shit ...

I was in the middle of talking to her about thinking of tracing down my birth parents when I got a text message from my therapist. It was a link that took me to a site. Under that she wrote "I found your parents and you won't believe who they are!!!" I guess she knew I wasn't going to search her and she did it for me. I clicked on the link kind of intrigued on who they might be.. As I click on it , it took me to google and the images and also some other websites with subtitles reading "The queen of Scotland Mary " I was in shock litterally my jaw dropped. Katie of course  saw and asked to snoop through my phone.
"AHHHHH!!!! What the flibber jabber!!!! Your mother is queen of Scotland?!" She annoyingly says as she yells at the top of her lungs in front of everyone in the whole cafeteria.
"Shhhh!! Be quiet Katie!. I don't even think this is accurate." I say
"Well of course it is you silly goose why wouldn't it. Oh my god Luna ! You do know what this means right?"
"what does it mean?"
"Your next for the thrown.!!!" Katie says
"What?" I say in so much confusion
"If your real mother passes after she claims that she's your mother , then you will be queen of Scotland" Katie said in excitement
"That's impossible, there's no way that woman would die, and if she did she wouldn't look for me before... She probably has other kids."
"Come on Luna.... Don't act like you don't want to see her." She says
"I don't. Whatever I'm leaving the bells about to ring to go to class." I say in anger

I was waiting for my mom to pick me up until she finally got there. She was acting extremely happy for some reason. I soon came to realize when I got home that they bought me my car! . Like I've been hopping for this . And I finally got it. I gave them big hugs and we talked about it over a delicious dinner. We laughed and shared about our day. It was I can say one of the best days of coming home from school a.k.a hell.

*beep" the phone in the teachers class rings
*Ms. Davison speaking"
"Hi Ms.Davison, we need to see Luna Mast. Please send her to the office thank-you"

"Luna they need you in the office" she says
As I'm walking to the office I don't understand why I have to go there. My mom is working till late and so is my dad so their is no way that they can pick me up early. In addition my grades are great so I see no reason as to why they would want to talk about my grades. Maybe they are giving me a scholarship!! But I doubt.  By the time I got in the office everyone's eyes were on me. My counselor was waiting for me.
We entered her office when she proceeded to tell me why I was being held here.
"Luna, I'm afraid I have some terrible bad news." She says with a pity look in her eyes.
"What is it?" I say while my heart is beating at a million mike rate.
"Your parents they got into a car accident on the way to the school, they were called to come here to speak about how excellent your grades were and how we think you should apply for a scholarship.... But they didn't make it. They called the school to inform us , from the hospital saying your parents were diseased. I'm sorry ." She says as her eyes start to tear. I can feel myself breaking into pieces . My world came crashing down at my feet right before my eyes. But I was in shock ... They were my parents.. I loved them. I felt the rush of tears leaving my eyes as I started to slowly crumble to the floor.