Insincere Veneer

|Chapter 27|

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|Chapter 27|

I was stunned. My jaw was dropped. My head was paining me, but my heartache gave me much more pain than I could ever explain. I shouldn't have asked her. She must feel devastated, for I may have crossed a line I shouldn't have. I probably opened a lane of memories she locked up inside for a long time. To say I felt terrible is an understatement.

I felt atrocious.

This dinner visit is giving me a headache. There are too many things revealed to me at once and it makes me sick to the deepest pit in my stomach. Justin's appearance, his "flirting" with Eleanor, their announcement that they're family, then, the confirmation of them being siblings, and finally, the admittance of Eleanor being adopted.

Ouch.

   I didn't want to ask her about it. Not today, now. Not tomorrow. Not in the future, ever. Because if I was in her place, I would have flinched at the thought. I would have wanted to run away and hide in the darkest shadows. I would have not said anything about this at all. I wouldn't have put myself in that position.

But why did she?

   I found it hard to breathe properly. I wanted to go home, fall in my bed, and get the deepest sleep I could ever. I wanted to forget everything that's been happening today, yesterday, and every single day in my troublesome, messed up life.

   I'm a human that's living, but I don't feel alive. I'm breathing, but the breaths of fresh oxygen that should make me feel animate, do the complete opposite. I'm a messed up human.

No wonder why people hate my guts.

"Elizabeth? Why are you..." Eleanor looked at me, wide-eyed. She was next to me in a millisecond, hugging me tighter than she ever have. She touched my face, wiping away the tears on my cheeks.

Tears.

Betrayal.

Grief.

   I started sobbing. I held onto her like she was my life that I'm trying to save. I cried way too hard. More than I ever wanted to. I just let it all out. My tears fell like fresh water breaking through a destroyed dam. It was like someone took out the essential block in the middle of the wall I was building around me, and it all fell down into pieces way too many. My cries grew louder than they have ever. I sat there, bowling my eyes out on Eleanor's shoulders as she whispered comforting words in my ears. I could feel Justin's sad eyes staring holes into my back, but that never seemed to make me stop. I went on.

   I had always promised myself to never let anyone see my tears. To never let anyone watch me cry. I didn't want anyone to see how weak I really am. I wanted them to believe that I'm someone I'm not. But today... today felt different. I cried and I actually had someone be there for me. Comfort me as I let out my agony, pain, devastation, and grief. Eleanor and Justin didn't laugh at me. Eleanor's small hand drew small, comforting circles on my back. She spoke the most soothing, sweet, and encouraging words I have ever heard in my entire miserable life. They didn't push me away. They didn't judge me. They didn't insult me. They didn't take the opportunity to bully me.