When No Light Shines Through

Losing Hope

It all started one morning I (Sevyn) woke up and made breakfast for my two younger sisters and my mom. One of my sister's name was Tina she's 11 and she's in the 5th I also had an even younger sister same Shayna, Shayna is 9 and she in the 3rd grade. I have an older brother named Daniel as well but he's 20 and he has his own house with his son and his girlfriend. So I really don't have to worry about him but my sisters on the other side. They mean the world to me like they are my life and at this point of time they are kind of like my kids. I'm only 14 and I'm starting to realize that my childhood might be over and I might have to step up to the plate and become a higher figure. I knows her mom is really sick and I knows there's a chance my mom can be gone for good so at this point of my life I just have a lot on my mind but I still strive to do everything I can for the sake of my younger sisters and my mom.

Meanwhile I go downstairs to makes my sisters and my mom a healthy breakfast. Then I go and wake my little sisters up and get their clothes out and get them ready to go to school then I send them down stairs so they can eat breakfast the most important meal of the day. While my sisters are getting up and dressed getting ready to go down stairs to eat and leave to get on the bus for school. I make my mom's plate then I walk up stairs so I can give it to her. So I go up the stairs slowly and quiet so that I don't wake up my mom. I Knock on the Door (*Knock Knock). My mom tells me to come in so I walked in and gave her the breakfast i made her. She looked all sad and depressed. I asked her is everything going to be okay. My mom starts smiling then she said "Yes everything will be okay baby". I don't believe her I know my mom is going to die because everything bad happens to me. My mom told me that it's just a little cold and that everything will be okay in a couple of weeks. I start
smiling "Okay well I made you, Tina and Shay some breakfast" I said. My mom thanks me then I go back down to make sure my little sisters ate and then I'm going to walk them to their bus stop.

While were walking out the door I tell my sisters that no matter what good or bad Ill always be there for them no matter what I told them don't worry for every bad there's a good no matter what we go through well always have each other and I told them never loose hope. Even thought I was losing hope and she felt as though there was nothing more to life I still had to hold all my feelings in and I had to be strong for them. I didn't want my little sisters to have the same attitude I did. I wanted to be the best role model I could for them and no matter what they were a part of me so I couldn't lose them, I wanted them to understand what I meant and were I was coming from. Meanwhile the bus is coming down the street I told my little sister's I loved them, nothing will ever come between us and that I would be at the bus stop to pick them up in the afternoon. They give me a big hug then the get on the bus. They waved at me then I blew them a kiss then walked back to my house to check on my mom.