When No Light Shines Through

Giving Up

It's been a week now and were at my mom funeral we buried her in Danbury, Connecticut because that were my mom was born. Me ans my brother had to speak my two sisters were too young to speak and too young to even understand what was going on. My brother Daniel spoke first because he was the oldest then it was me. As I walked up to the i barely knew what i was gonna say I knew what to say but I didn't know how to say It was so sad I didn't even feel like I could even speak. I looked up I seen my too little sisters they looked sad but they had faith in me they knew i could do it so I couldn't let them down so just did what i had to do. The night before I had stuff on the paper but I don't know why but what i wrote on the paper just wasn't good enough I felt i as though i need to speak from my heart and not from a piece of paper so I suck all my tears in that way i can be able to speak from my heart so i began to talk. " Thank you all for coming this means a lot to me and my family and I know it would have meant a lot to my mom. A lot have happen and I don't even know where to began but I do know everything has a purpose I mean I'm only 14 and it is sad to see my mother gone but I know god took her up there for a reason and I know he had a purpose this isn't a punishment or isn't for me to suffer its a lesson and an opportunity for me to become a young lady and start to make decisions on my own. Just because my mom is gone that doesn't mean that I don't have other family and friends that are here me me. There's a lot on my mind but I know I can do it I know I can make it, My mom told me so. Everything I do from now on is gonna be for a reason and my reason is for my family and especially mom that's all I can really say right now but thanks again everyone we really appreciate it". After i finished speaking so many people stood up and cheered for me they were so happy they believed in me I don't remember all that happened that day, but I do know I felt a change I don't know why but for some reason I wasn't so mad anymore I mean how could I this was obviously God testing me he knew I could do it and so did my mom. I mean yea I was still upset about her but this was my time to prove I have what it takes and this was the time i had to become the best role model for my younger sisters and for everybody else who looked up to me. I Finally believed I know I can do it !!!