When No Light Shines Through

Worst Day Ever

I remember it like it was yesterday it was April 26th, 2013 everything was going fine it was like a perfect day. A couple months has passed since the whole situation about my mom being sick. But everything seemed to be better everything was like it was gonna be okay no one was worrying about it anymore and she wasn't coughing and all that anymore so we all thought everything was good. While these months me, my sisters, and my mom spent every moment that we had together. And me and mom sat down more and talked about mom and daughter stuff and everything was great. But what none of us knew is that her being sick wasn't better it was worse all of us thought she was okay because she wasn't in pain anymore and she didn't seem sick anymore but she actually was getting worse we didn't know that her not feeling the pain no more and not coughing and stuff was a sign of it getting worse we though everything was but it wasn't. I was in school when everything went wrong I was at lunch with my two best friends just talking laughing doing what we usually then then the lady from the office ran into the cafeteria "Seven Seven " She Screamed. I got up from the lunch table and said "Yessss". She started screaming again and she told me to come with her my nana was in the office with my little sister I seen them all I crying I asked what was wrong? "It's about your mother" She Said ...WHAT ABOUT HER!! I felt the tears about to come out I knew it had to to be something bad she said I'm sorry but she's gone Seven she passed away about 2 hours ago. I dropped to the floor instantly. I just kept screaming "NOOOO NOOOO". It can't be no I seen her this morning she was fine everything was going fine how could this be. Please tell me your lying. Are you lying?" My Nana was like No I'm sorry baby but she gone I couldn't stop crying my chest was heaving I started weazing I felt like the world just ended and I was left there all alone I didn't know what to do or say all I could do is cry. I looked up and I seen my two sister they were crying too my nana told us to come on so she could take us to hospital. I couldn't move breath or anything I felt like I was in the middle of the road dying and no one could see me. Only thing that was going through my mind was Why Me? I can't do all this on my own I need my mom here to help and guide me why did you have to take her away I can't do this all on my own. My Nana continued to lead us to the car we got in the car and my Nana just kept saying "It will be okay just pray". But I didn't feel like praying I didn't feel like doing anything I was so tired of everybody telling me to pray. I prayed all the time. They said prayer heals everything so why didn't it heal this I prayed in the morning, at school, at night, before I got in the shower I prayed all the time but it wasn't working it never did. I Thought only bad comes to those who deserved but I didn't everything I was suppose to do so I didn't believe I deserved this. This was not fair...