It's been three weeks since me and jace had sex.
Sex
That's a big word. I was a virgin because I never had time to even think about sex. And now I have it at least twice a day. Jace is a sex machine.
He's more possessive than ever. He always wants to be touching me in some way. I'm not used to it. I can't say I don't want him to touch me but even as a child I never liked to be touched. Therefore I never kind of received affection. Not that I'm complaining about jace touches. I still tense when he does. He growls when I pull away and just grips me tightly.
We are currently sitting in the pack lands park. I wanted to get out of the pack house and this apparently is were not many males around as jace claims. I just want to kick him in his throat sometimes.
"I hate kids" I sigh and leaned my head on my knees.
"Why" jace ask. Looking at me. I look
Into his eyes, I see he is curious as why i do.
" its more of a love hate." I shrug.
" you will love are pups." He growls lifting me up by my hips and sitting me on his lap straddling him.
" I would. As I love babies. And I would love my babies. Because there mine, but-" I say just before I open up to him. I look away and go to get off his laps. He growls slamming me back down and pushing his head and my neck. Breathing a few times, he looks up at me.
"But what?" He says catching my chin to look him in his eyes. I might as well tell him. He is my mate and I should talk to someone about this shit.
" but I don't think I'd be a good mom. I mean I never really had one in the first place. And I don't want to have look in my babies eyes and see all the hope, admiration and dreams die. Eventually kids grow up and they loose that spark they once had. There gonna wake up and realize that world has no hope , just disappointment and there dreams die. It sad to see someone finally face reality and not be happy. but then again that's this world right." I tell him. Finally I look up at him , I see he's starting at me with a frown and confusion on his face. I look away ashamed and get out of his hold. I look at the ground when he grabs my hips. I look at him and say I want to go home. We do with him putting me caged into his side.
............
Walking around the house exploring I came to a stop and looked at the painting on the wall. It's dark. really dark , and not the color either. It has pain in it.
I jump feeling arms circling around my waist. " why are you up so late its 4:30 am." He says turning me around looking in my eyes.
"I couldn't sleep." I mutter to him looking down. He pulls me close and puts his heat in my neck. He inhales and growls so loud the painting shook. I jump and try to pull back. He grabs me buy my arms .
"Who were you with?" He sneers out. I'm confused I look up at him.
"No one" next thing I'm slammed into the wall. He pushes me in by pushing his body on my small frame. I'm fucking pissed he has no right to do this shit.
"Don't fucking lie to me I can smell him on you." I think about what he's saying remember that I spilled milk on my shirt so the beta gave me new one. I'm still mad that he's saying stupid shit. Enough of this I push him hard and he falls few steps away.
" first off I spilled milk on my shirt so the beta gave me a new one and who the actual fuck do you think your talking to you fucknut! Don't go-" lips smash to mine as he pushes me back on the wall lifting me up. I wrap my legs around him so I don't fall.
He rips my shirt off and pulls my underwear off in one swift movement he slams into me. I cry out and clutch his shoulders. He gets rougher and I start to moan arching my back. He puts his head in my neck and slammed into me as he bites my
mark. We come as he pulls out.
"Mine." He states as he kisses up my neck suck and biting " all mine".
He starts biting hard making me struggle against him pushing his chest away he growls and slams back Into me.
After we were done we went to shower and when we're done doing stuff in the shower we went to bed, well he went to bed I still couldn't sleep.
This times sucks. It's were I think. And I don't like to think about those places. those people and the things they did. They took away all I ever had and made me the person I am today. Cold. I only feel something with jace. And that scares me.
authors note - I know it isn't that long but my shit is dying.
