I Thought

I thought that you cared. I thought we were close. Maybe I was wrong. You put them before me. They are more important than your best friend. Well I guess I thought wrong. Make them your best friend. They can have you because apparently my opinion doesn't matter to you anymore.

You always change when your with them. Suddenly I'm blocked out and basically forgotten. They have to tell you to include me in something. When they are with you I'm out of the picture.

I thought since we were close and we were best friends no matter what happened I was first. Nope I was totally wrong you found a new best friend. Once they leave you come to me and act all nice when two seconds ago I didn't know who you were.

Even my other friends notice. You talk, act, think different with them. I have nothing against them they are my friends too. But at least I don't change when I'm around them. I have my same personality with everyone.

You think of them first and have to be told to even think about me two. We hang out and laugh then as soon as one of them I'm put to the side for later when they are gone. I'm tired of it, I want to be your best friend but I can't because they come first in your eyes.

Its always been them before me. I was your best friend before them! I was nice to you and everything because you were new. We have so much in common and we are basically twin. Sister by heart at least that's what I thought. I'm not mentioning name but they changed you. They aren't bad people at all. They are funny and I admit I play around but you tell them my secrets and stuff I tell you.

I thought that was between us and not everyone one of them two. You get on my nerves with that. You make me mad all the time but continue crawling back and say you were playing and I don't know why I believe it all the time.

I get words said to me and laughed about because it just a joke. And deep down you know it's not but you do it anyways because your around them. Why can't you be on my side for once. When we are around me it's fine as soon as they come here comes someone I don't even know and the jokes that hurt.

I thought I could trust you with personal things I tell you. Burnt gets "brought up" and you tell them even though I said no matter what don't. But of course anything for them because they are first before me. I try to get you to realise that you change when your with them and me you just don't see it.

My other friends notice how can't you. Now I feel like I can't tell you anything because you'll go and tell them. You do almost everything with them. You talk about things with them that include me but has to be a secret. It makes me mad. And you just stay saying I'm always mad.

Huh I wonder why?? Maybe you should think about it and realize your hurting your "best friend" with what you say and do.
You write, mention, talk about them nonstop. And I listen because that's just the friend I am. How can I get you to notice your different. I thought you cared. I thought I was your best friend. I thought wrong youve got them now.

Author's Note

I'm sorry guys I just need to find a way to put this out. I have to deal with this everyday because all this^ happens at school. But I will probably be doing this everyday hopefully so just continue reading. ❤

P.S the song isn't about the relationship part but I love her like she is my sister. I get mad but I still want to be their. So think of it that way and not the relationship part.