I Thought

Another Day

I thought this would change. Once again I thought wrong. You continue to be with them post things with them and don't mention me. I don't get invited to anything you do with them.

Tbh I wouldn't go anyways because I know I would get blocked out. You have fun with them and let be alone at home wondering if I'll get a texts from you. I post and of course your the first one to texts me and ask. Oh now your worried.

All of sudden you take time to ask me about something you should know about. Because I'm sure I told you. But of course you forget because your with them. You have fun, laugh, do everything with them. I get nothing from you. No texts, calls anything. You don't ask if I want to go anywhere with you or just hang out.

Just don't even bother. I won't either because they are more important than me right?  Because your told to think about me, include me in your conversations when I sitting right next to you. I thought you listened to me. Everything I've done a d said for you and this is what I get in return.

I was your best friend and I got replaced with three of them. Just because they have more classes with you than I do doesn't mean I'm not just as important. I was there by your side before them. You were new and I was nice enough to talk to you and become your friend before them.
I thought you would of took that I'm mind and thought about it. I guess not. Because right now as I'm writing this your with them and not me. Of course you can have more friends but I thought I would be included too. Knowing you do everything with them now.

I know you'll never read this because I've told you about my other books and you called it stupid. I'm glad other people with read it because they think these books are a way to get away from everything else. You put your feelings into characters and make stories people want to read. Not even my "best friend" wants to take a few minutes to look.

I support you with everything you decide but to call this stupid isn't right. I do this so people can hear me out and enjoy reading things not so they can judge it and call it stupid. I thought you would actually encourage me to do it and help me. I thought wrong again. It seem I think things differently all the time because ignition doesn't involve them your not interested.

Another day goes by and I still hear nothing from you. To see if I'm alright or even just to talk. Your to busy with them sitting and talking like what we planned to do but you blew it off.
We can just hang out at. Your house and do whatever. Uh nothing sorry I have things to do with my parents today. Oh OK maybe another day.

Huh when will that happen. As that day goes on you and your parents get them so you can hang out with them. I thought we had that planned. You decided to have them over instead of me.
All of us could of done that but you just want them around.

You are always changing and I don't know what to think anymore. Should I crawl back again or me mad and leave for good. Sometimes I want to leave but you keep talking and making me think things will change. They never do. I want to make things work but everything you do and decide you have two ask them. I thought being your best friend meant I could help that too. But that's not what happens it always them... Three people that are more important to you than me. I play around with them and you and try to fit in with you it never seems to work.

It's always been hard to fit in with everyone. I wasn't always perfect and I showed it. Trying to make people laugh and like me was hard. I'm not the perfect size,shape or anything. I admit I'm am thick but I love myself. Anothers like me too. And like to keep me as a friend. You on the other hand would probably never would of talked to me ignoring didnt try making  friends with you.

Author's Note

Is anyone there listening? Anyways another day went by and it's still the same thing. I don't know what to do anymore. I need time. See you in the next update. 💔

P.S: once again for the video it's not the relationship part it's the part leave them for me. Have time for me too. Like before said she is like my sister I love her like she is my sister. Think that way.