I Thought

I'm sorry

You thought I was complaining over you having other friends except me. You were wrong I was complaining about how you are always blocking me out and changing around me.

We had arguments and other people posted things that got you and them upset. I never meant for it to come to that. Now everyone is against me because you all think I started it. I realized that I was wrong to talk behind your back. But tbh I wasn't. You changed your attitude like I always told them right in front of there faces.

Everyone realized it even when I didn't say anything. You accuse me of talking behind your back and not be loyal. I think you need to look in the mirror and tell yourself your not anymore guilty. You told them our business and everything. You talk more about it behind my back and never told me.

I had to figure it out on my own. But in your eyes I'm the bad "best friend". If I was your best friend you wouldn't spread things that I told you not too. Oh but you do anyways. And I really don't know how I kept giving in and forgiving you. But you won't forgive me for the exact same thing you did to me.

I feel like shit right now. Because I have to deal with everyone blaming me for saying for someone else to posts things. It wasn't my decision for them to post that. They were on my side. They were being a better friend than you and actually knowing my opinion.

She sees you change and ignore me and she knows that you do that to your "best friend". She was being nice and be there because she knows I would do the same for her. But you I don't think you would give it a second thought. If you were in my shoes you would understand how you treat me.

But of course since your with them and they suddenly came I to everything you go straight and argue with me. They weren't even included in anything until you of course tell them everything and they get involved. For no reason now they are mad at me because they think they know what all happened.

Know everyone is against me and I can't get my mind off of it no matter what happens. I have to put on a smile for my family because I don't need them adding to the drama. You stay with them and pretend like nothing and decided not to talk to me. I never wanted this to happen but it wasn't all my fault.

I have on my shoulder all this weight thinking it was all my fault. You weren't perfect. You did the exact same thing and didn't say anything till I had to bring it up. Then I don't having no fucking clue why I would forgive you but I did. In some ways I hope that you forgive me and others I could really care less.

In my opinion there is not reason to cry about this because it's stupid. You are mad at me for something you've done right back to plenty of times. Burning get the worst of it by everyone turning on me and me feeling like shit. I've been crying for three hours. And I can't seem to stop. Random things pop up and I think about it and hold back tears.

At this point I don't know if I can do it anymore. Replace me for them and call them your best friend and only talk to them. Fine whatever do it I could care less. You want to hang out with them and be on their side do it. I have friends that see you do this and are on my side. Since you've been with them you only think their opinions are right.

I'm so done with your shit. Arguing with me and getting them involved. Because all I'm going to get at school is dirty looks and talking behind my back. I really am done at this point I really just want to curl in a ball and cry. Because all this shit is on my shoulders because of you. I get everyone mad at me because you always think I'm the bad person. I need a break I'm glad your not going to talk to me. I'm done with you goodbye. I have better friends than you..

P.S: All this happened today and I'm emotional drained and I am not looking forward to school. I don't want to go and deal with her. I need to calm down and cry atm bye.