Time after Time (#LoveLetters)

♥Letter 6♥

Dear her,

Ah, Christmas is here, isn't it? Did I literally say 'ah'? That's what I hear you always say.
Here I go again, things have to remind me of you, don't they? It's not my fault, it just happens, I guess.

Anyway, off that note, a lot of interesting things happened today.
I wonder if you remember? I wonder if you even think of them as much as I do. You may be surprised but that's all I have been thinking about all day. I just had to spill them out before internally exploding so here goes:

First of all, I got an opportunity to sit by you today.
Well, it was a convenient spot because two of my friends, who happen to be girls, were sitting behind you so I suppose, that made it less obvious. You didn't seem to budge an inch, probably because you didn't care, but we did somehow manage to strike up a very short conversation about dogs. I recalled how my dog wasn't very self-controlled and you instantly agreed with a laugh. It was short, but it was nice, honestly.

Then, the complete highlight of my day was when you were by yourself in the school office. I saw you through the glass window printing things off on the printer when I gathered my courage to try to talk to you.
After all, it was a wonderful opportunity. And, I hadn't done so.
Might as well try!

You saw me walking in just when I thought you'd leave with your printings in hand, but you didn't leave immediately. You stopped short right in front of me as if you were waiting for something to happen.
Then, we just simply stared at each other for what seemed like forever.
Five seconds, max.
Like five seconds is considered forever, right?

Then, before things grew even more awkward, you said something to me.

"Hi."

Almost instantly, I answered back,

"Hi."

Then all too soon, you turned to leave. I guess, you didn't have anything else to say or you just didn't want to talk to me.
Maybe.
I stood there completely forlorn and beaten for at least ten seconds before exiting. I saw you in the distance looking back, but thankfully, you couldn't see the sadness in my eyes.
I knew it.
I knew you didn't like me since you left.
But, you said hi.
First.
That has to mean something, right?

You tell me.

After that entire incident, you and your friends and my friends came over to my house for like a Christmas get together that night.
Great, maybe I'll have some more opportunities then.
Not.

It seemed like I was always drifted away by people, girls mostly. That's gets so annoying sometimes, honestly, but whatever.
You don't care.
Why do I keep saying whatever all the time? Surely I must care more than that.

Even though, we all played a game involving exchanging white elephant gifts and it just so happened, you chose mine. Like out of all of them, you chose mine though I don't think there were very many left by that time. I remember looking up from my phone to see you holding the book I had gotten rid of. I smiled which later turned to a laugh when I told you,

"Ah, so you got it?"

You looked up and smiled while pretending to read it with great interest.
I thought it was cute.

Honestly.

Sincerely,
Him