TIGGER WARNING: This story mentions a suicide attempt.
Sam's POV
"Hey Moose, what are you up to?" asked Gabriel.
"Nothing Gabe, I was thinking about what do to later. It is nothing important. Just don't worry about ok?" spoke a depressed Sam.
Could Gabe not see that I love him or could he see it and not want to say a thing about.
He hates you for thinking of him like you do you freak. That is all he will ever think about you. You are a freak that loves him. He doesn't want to talk to you. He is just pretending that he wants to. It want matter if you are gone. Why want you kill yourself.
I no he doesn't.
He talks to you because you are a depressed freak. He is just give me false hope.
Fine I will kill myself than. Everyone will happy if I do. I am just a burden to everyone anyway.
Gabriel's POV
What is wrong with him. Can't he see I am considered about him. Why can't he see I love him? Why does he look so depressed? Did I do something wrong? Why can't I make anyone happy?
He needs you tell him that you love him. He want understand that you love him if you don't tell him Gabriel. He won't you have to tell.
All of a sudden, Sam just walked out of the room before I could grab his hand. I ran after him, but than I stopped because I realized he probably needs alone time.
Sam's POV
I walked out of the room, but I didn't want to leave. His company is what I need, but I knew it would only make me more depressed than I already am. I really don't need it right now, but I need a drink to calm my nerves. I called Dean.
"Can you pick me up?... Yes... I WANT TO GO TO A BAR TO CLEAR MY HEAD BECAUSE I JUST DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE RIGHT NOW AND YES DEAN IT IS ABOUT HIM!" I was yelling at my phone than burst into tears. I heard Dean pull up after the call ended.
"Come on Sam, lets go get you a drink. It looks like you need one right now. But are you ok Sammy?"
"No, Dean I am not okay. Can you just go right now?"
"Sure Sam," Dean comforting as he scooped me up as if I was weightless.
When we got home later that, I quickly went to my room.
I started to write a note.
Dean
I don't want you tell Gabe about what I am doing.
This is my suicide note. This is where it ends.
It all ends tonight. I love you and I love him too.
I am a depressed freak. I never wanted this to happen, ever
but it is. I want you to go on like I never was born.
This is the last time you will see me.
-Samuel
This ends it all. I reached for the blade beside me. I never wanted it to end like this, but it had to be done. I cut my arms as deep as possible. Before I knew it, I blacked out.
Gabriel's POV
I got a call from Dean that I need to come over as quick as possible. Dean ushered me to Sam's room once I enter the house. I saw Sam laying in his own blood. I ran over to him. I was crying like I never had before. Tears went down my cheeks and onto Sam's forehead. I was to late.
"I love you Sam. PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME HERE WITHOUT YOU. PLEASE I NEED YOU HERE IN THIS WORLD. IT WILL NEVR BE THE SAME. WHY DIDN'T I TELL YOU HOW I FELT. WHYYYYYYYY?"
All of a sudden Sam's eyes started to fluttered open. The place where he cut himself was closed. He pulled me into a hug saying, "I love you too. But why I am here on the floor, I thought I was on my bed?"
Sam's POV
I felt a pull on that I never felt before. All of a sudden I see Gabriel. "I love you too. But why I am on the floor, I thought I was on my bed." I looked around to see all the blood around me. I see think that is why Gabe is here. I am glad he is though. "Dean, can you leave me and Gabe alone right now? I need to speak to him without you here. It is personal."
"Sure, what ever baby brother. Plus, it looks like you two need it."
"Thanks Dean and can you never call me baby brother again. You know how I hate."
"I get it loud and clear."
When Dean left, I got off the floor and looked into Gabe's eyes.
"Sam... why didn't you tell me how you felt?"
"Because I didn't want you think that I was a freak for loving you. I never thought you would love me back in a million years, but I guess I was wrong."
"Well I love you Sam Winchester and don't forget it ok."
"Okay Gabe. I love you too. Don't you ever forget that."
Gabe bent his head down and crashed our lips together. His lips felt soft and tasted like cherry lollipops. His hand was rubbing circles on my back in a comforting way. I have never felt better then I ever have before. I finally got my Angel, Gabe.
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So I guess I was feeling really sad at the beginning because of how sad I made it. But I have a friend that made me feel better. I want to thank you for reading this shitty one-shot I have made.
