Can we create something beautiful? (Kellic) (boyxboy)

Chapter 5

Oops... Sorry for not posting for ages, I'm a piece of shít

I was really great at turning people against me wasn't I? Maybe I'd be better of moving house, or country! Or better yet, dead. Okay... Maybe that was a bit extreme...

After snapping myself out of those thoughts I walked out of the bathroom and grabbed my car keys from the bowl beside the door before heading out towards the gravel driveway. I shut the door behind me and walked over to my small car that was parked under a tree. I unlocked the car and climbed in, sitting down in the drivers seat.

A sudden wave of nerves hit me. I didn't want to do this. What if the band didn't forgive me? What if they hated me? What if they kicked me out of the band for good? My breathing began to speed up and these thoughts had me gasping for air. The last thing I needed right now was a panic attack. Quick. I needed to take my mind off things.

Opening the compartment full of CD's I grabbed one of them not taking note of which CD it was and putting it into the sterio. Music would take my mind off things.

Whilst the disc was loading a put the Key in the ignition and started up the car. After about a Minuit the music began to play...

As I choke,
Try to wash you down with something strong.
Tried, but the taste of blood remains.

Shít. It just had to be collide with the sky didn't it? I've never been able to multitask whilst driving so I didn't want to risk crashing the car by changing the CD.

So keep in happiness and torture me while I,
Tell you let's go in style.
A million hooks around a million ways to die,

Ok I couldn't take this anymore. Vic's voice was too much and I just remembered how much I had let him down. I simply pressed the button that turned the radio off and sat in the car in silence.

After a long, silent drive to the studio I parked the car outside and took a deep breath before exiting my car and entering the building. I walked slowly along the corridor until I reached the grey door if the practice room labelled "sleeping with sirens." I could hear the guys practicing without me. 

I wrapped my fingers around the handle and slowly opened the door with a creek. They all suddenly stopped playing and glared at me with hostility. Justin was the first to speak.

"Look what the cat dragged it." He scoffed.

The rest of the band still failed to communicate with me at all. I just stood in the doorway, completely dumbfounded.

"Díck! What do you think gives you the right to be here?" Gabe snapped.

I just walked straight back out and slammed the door behind me. I could feel a prickling sensation behind my eyes and they began to well up. Why the fuck am I so weak?

The band continued to play as if the previous events hadn't even occurred. I must have been standing outside for a while because the practice room opposite finished playing and somebody walked out. I didn't feel like interacting with anybody at the moment so I thew my hood over my head and proceeded to look as unapproachable as possible.

Just my luck the person coming out of that room had to be a member of pierce the veil. And it just had to be vic didn't it?

I brushed my hair over my face hoping he wouldn't recognise me which was an attempt rather far fetched considering I was standing directly outside of sleeping with sirens' practice room.

"Kellin?" Vic mumbled walking over to me.

I didn't reply and prayed that he would somehow still fail to see it was me.

"Kellin I know thats you..."

Was he a fûcking mind reader?

"Are you alright? What's wrong? Why aren't you practicing with the rest of the band?"

I looked up to see him and my eyes must have been red and watery because his expression immediately changed to one of concern.

"Kellin? I-"

"The band doesn't want me anymore. I'm a fuckìng let down. Nobody wants me around." I interrupted him.

"That's not true" he began stepping closer, "I want you."

I couldn't deal with his flirtatious tone at the moment. He rested his arm on the wall above me head and tried to put his face closer to mine. I flinched away and stepped back.

"Seriously vic? All I want right now is a friend and It seems as though the only one I have is too selfish to care about anything but finding himself someone to fúck."

He didn't reply after that. He simply backed off and walked away. Maybe I was too harsh on him. I guess I did lead him on by kissing him last night.

Great. Another supposed friend I've been a prick to. Congratulations kellin! Your officially the worst friend in the world.