Winnie and the Rebel

Stop Slaking

Earlier

If the babies were in a cave then they had no choice then to eat the mama octopus, right? I mean that's the mama's job, to make sure that her babies lived. Thats what moms are supposed to do.

As you could tell I'm bored and just came from science class which was pretty lit if you ask me. I was walking the halls since theres nothing else to do. Max was around here somewhere I could hear him. As weird as that is I could, he breaths weird. I stopped he was running, so I started to run to him.

"Stay way from that girl Remy you're fucking up her life." He looked me hard in the eyes.

"Que?"

"That girl you're always with stay. The. Fuck. Away. From. Her."

"Can I ask why at least? I mean you're the one who should be taking orders." he's mouth turned into a thin line, I think I hit something.

"What's that supposed to mean? You're not in charge of me you barley even talk to me! you spend all that time on that little girl." he stepped closer to me, he's words dripping with hate and anger. "That girl that you are pushing to kill! She hates the way you treat her and get into her head! She hates it so much you pushed her to kill her self!" the anger left he's body and he's mouth opened. "I-I d-didn't.." the words drifted off. he tried to make up for him self but there was no point, he said it and there was no taking it back.

"No I didn't..." I stepped backed from him. "I couldn't have." all he did was nod. he said what he said and I did what I did and there was no sorry for it, there was nothing I could do.

"Rem I'm sorry....I'm..." he's voice faded away. I couldn't think of anything but her.

"Where is she?" he said nothing. "Where the fuck is she?!" I gritted out. I had to find her, I had to say sorry. I started for the stairs. "Fuckkkk I cant lose it!"

"Stop Remy! Maybe I was wrong!" but I couldn't stop. that's when I saw her, I walked towards her. Max said something, but I quickly snapped. I couldn't hear what I said nor what he said.

As soon as I blacked out I was back, I stepped away. There was a hole in the wall. Was that me? Did I do that? A ringing brought me back, when I went to look at her she was gone. I heard the doors close as I turned to max.

"I have to say I'm sorry." with that I ran after her.

"Remy don't!" I kept running

"Winnie!" I called out. I heard her whimpered and fallowed that. I stopped when I saw her. she backed up into a tree. I couldn't stop walking to her. I snatched her hand, holding it in mine. I looked her in the eyes, I saw the pain and how scared she was but I couldn't stop I needed to know. I slowly brought it up, head level with me and looked. Everything Max had said was true. he was right.

I closed my eyes hoping they would go away.

How could I do this to her? Why would she do it? What did I do?

I couldn't open my eyes, if I open my eyes they will still be there. Maybe they weren't there because of me, but why would Max lie? He wouldn't right? There's no way.

I dropped her hand and stepped back. I had to leave before I hurt her more then I already have. I've been here for maybe a week and I've hurt her that much. I'm fucked up, I fucked her up. How could I do this? That question rang in my head.

I turned my back to her about to walk around when I heard a whimper. I stopped, this is my fault I shouldn't leave her. I took other step forward and I heard a sob.

She didn't want me to go did she? I turned my head to look at her. She looked me in the eyes before falling to her knees.

I jumped to her having no control over my body as I caught her before she hit the ground. My arms wrapped around her waist gripping her tight as we we hit the ground with her on top.

"Winnie... ?" Another sob came from her. I sat up and brought her to my chest. She was so soft in my arms, so fragile. I huged her as tight as I could. I can fix this. It can't be that hard right? She's a girl, she just needs love. I might not be able to give it to her but maybe if I get her a dog or something.

"Please..." I broke out of my thoughts and looked down at her. Her head in my chest, what do I do I can't think I can't fucken do this. But I can't just leave her broken. I could hear heavy breathing coming from Max.

"Can you leave Max?" I whispered with my head still her hair.

"I-I-......"

"Get the fuck out of here!" I yelled picking up Winnie and walking the other way. I could fix this I know I can. Just time, just time will fix this right....?

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How could this happen? How could all this happen? How could I get attached just like that, fall for her like it was nothing? Shit I don't even care for the boys I live with. Maybe I do. I shook my head. I'm loyal to....my family.

I finally got home I had to stop thinking. All this time I've been weak? I got to my room and placed her on my bed. She had fallen asleep in my arms when I carried her out of the woods.

Max did something I know he did, I can't call him a fucken lair yet but it can't be my fault that she could or would do that to her self. I looked down at her and moved her hair out of her face.

"I swear if I ever catch the ones who hurt you..... I'm hoping that god looks away" I shook my head.

Her breath hitched up that's how I knew she was awake. I quickly got up and moved to the wall to lean on it. She cant know i care that much, I can't let her be my weakness. I watched her to see what she was going to do. I'm not sure if I want her to wake up. Then we would have to talk about it, the thing I was hoping that no one would do is Hurt them self, put pain on them for something that could maybe be fix.

"I know you're up Winnie." If this problem only hurt me then I wouldn't care, I can get used to pain, but this is hurting someone who doesn't need to be hurt.

"I'm sorry..." I looked up to see her sitting up rubbing her upper arm.

"Why would you be sorry? I'm the one who hurt you and you're sorry?" My eyebrow went up and my voice turned it into a question. She stood up and looked at me.

"I should go its late, night Rem." She walked towards the door. She didn't even wanna talk about it..?

"Wait." She stopped and turned to look at me. "Stay for dinner..?" I gave her an awkward smile, which made her give me a side way smile.

Her head dropped just like her smile. "I don't know what happened today but I know that we can forget about it." She looked up at me "so I won't be staying for dinner goodnight." With that she walked out of my room. Few minutes later I heard the door close. I looked out my window and saw her walking to her house.

This isn't who I am. I'm not a lover I'm a fighter. This is fucken stupid! I crashed on my bed and looked at the ceiling. I just need to stop I almost did it, if I try a little harder then I can. I won't let her be hurt by me again.

I just need to get my life together and stop slaking.