Reconnecting

Charter 9

Heavenly's POV

As we were driving, I noticed we weren't going to Jordan's house or Jayson's house. Even though they are twins, they don't live together. Jayson lives with their father and Jordan lives with their mother.

"Where are we going?" I asked since I let Logan drive. "To Deandre's house," she said as she focused on the road. "Why? I thought this was Jayson and Jordan's party." I asked looking at her.

"Because Jordan's mother is home and she will do too much, and Jayson didn't want it at his house so Deandre said they can have it at his since his mother is in the hospital." Logan said looking forward as if his mother being in the hospital is nothing.

"What do you mean in the hospital? Is she okay?" I asked a little worried. "She has cancer, she has been in and out the hospital since Deandre was little. He's use to it, and it's not that bad so he don't worry how he use to. He didn't tell you?" Logan asked sounding surprised.

"No, ....I guess we aren't or weren't as close as I thought." I said lowly looking out the window.

How could he not tell me this. I know he should feel comfortable, and he should be ready to tell me. But God, I've known him for two years, AND we have a baby together. I told him all about me, but yet he's holding out on me.

"Don't feel bad, he doesn't like talking about it and he won't unless someone brings it up. Which is a bad idea, so you shouldn't because he gets sensitive and feel like you're pressuring him and sort of disrespecting him if he didn't tell you and you bring it up. Then he will get defensive and say hurtful things.

Then he'll storm off pissed, and if you still be stubborn and hard headed like I know you will, don't tell him I told you. So I'm not surprised he didn't tell you because he only talked about it twice in his life." Logan said trying to make me feel better.

It doesn't make me feel better because why do Logan know and I don't? Do he not trust me? Or does he trust her more than me?

Once we pulled up to Deandre's house, it was already packed. People are standing outside smoking weed and whatever else, and once we entered we were forced to squeeze through the crowd.

That's when I saw Deandre talking to a girl name Yolanda. She ain't got nothing on me, plus that's one of the little amount of people who don't talk shit about me and didn't talk shit about me. She minded her business and stayed in her place, and I'm grateful for that. But I'm not grateful for her being all up in Deandre's face, but who can blame her?

Deandre is a flirt, he's sexy, to himself, don't like drama, and knows how to treat a girl and or woman and is known for having  bomb as dick. So I don't blame her for flirting or talking to him. Hell he probably pulled her aside and shit got started.

I walked by them like I didn't see them, knowing damn well they have my attention because I am being nosey. I walked to get a drink, I haven't had one since....the first night I had my first drink and also many drinks. That night was crazy, but that's a different story for a different time.

"Wassup? You look good." Deandre said walking up next to me. "Hey, and thanks." I said smiling, just happy he saw me and came almost instantly. I sipped my drink looking around. "Where's Chase?" He asked generally confused and curious.

"My grandmother is babysitting him tonight. He shouldn't miss me too much considering I'm not staying long." I said acting normal, even though inside I just want to smile really hard and laugh because I'm happy that he's actually noticing me and treating me well in front of all the people who doubted me.

"Why? You can't have a little fun in your life?" He asked smiling. "I have work tomorrow morning. I wasn't even going to come but Jada insisted and Logan begged me. So here I am," I said smiling.

"How do you feel about Chase being around other people? Like that we date?" He asked making me nervous. I bit my bottom lip, thinking about his question. He must be seeing some other girl, and he's so close and comfortable with her that he's willing to let her meet Chase. That means he moved on from me, and what I was feeling for him he wasn't feeling for me. Meaning me getting the impression that he was starting to want us again was the wrong impression.

"Heavenly..." He said waving his hand in front of my face making me realize I had zoned out. "So what do you think and feel about that?" He asked now having my attention again.

"Well I don't really want him around other people who don't care about him. I don't want people around him who doubted him and talked badly about him. But if you find someone who didn't and you feel strongly about them and feel it's necessary and it's time for them to meet Chase then we should sit down and talk about it, vice versa." I said knowing he's probably been talking about Yolanda.

Yolanda and Deandre probably been talking or even dating since he was in juvenile. I'm just seeing it now once I have those same feelings for him rekindle from two years ago.

"That's fair, okay." He said over thinking what I had said. Over the conversation we were having I had three drinks knowing I can't hold any alcohol. I'm tipsy now, but can still manage to figure out what's going on, and how to get around.

I felt my lips moving but I couldn't hear what I was saying. Then I heard Deandre laughing and talking but I couldn't make out what he was saying. And I blinked my eyes and when I opened them and  Deandre face was and is inches away from mines.

It was getting closer by the second, then finally his lips met mines. I pulled away from the kiss noticing what I am doing. "Stop...I can't do this," I whispered looking into his eyes.

"Do you trust me?" He asked, I remember this question and where I ended up after saying yes. I'm not going down that road again. "With Chase and as a parent, yes. But with me on a personal level, no...I don't trust you." I said before standing up and walking away.