Reconnecting

Chapter 11

Heavenly's POV

I woke up in bed alone, not feeling or seeing Deandre or Chase. I sat up and ran my hand through my hair. I got up and quietly walked towards where I hear Deandre whispering.

I walked down stairs and stood on the second to last step and watched Deandre talk and play with Chase. "What are you guys doing?" I asked after a while of watching them.

I walked down to them as Deandre looked up at me before looking back at Chase. "Nothing, just talking." He said sitting Chase on his lap.

"About...." I said smiling. "Well he's going to play basketball when he's older. Actually I want to see if he can join a team early, just so he can get the hang of things quicker. He's going to play basketball all the way up to when he graduates high school and then he'll go to Georgetown, and then he'll be drafted number one pick in the NBA." Deandre said smiling as he stared down at Chase before looking at me.

"Looks like you got his whole life planned out, what else do I need to know? What are you going to say next? That he'll marry a Puerto Rican girl, have three kids named Ed Edd n Eddy?" I asked laughing remembering when we use to watch the old reruns of it before things got crazy between us.

"Hey you playing, that was my shit. Ed Edd n Eddy, that shit was bomb as shit. We use to love that show, still watching even though nobody else did and it was off the air." He said smiling. I laughed before leaning back. "Yea, that was our little show." I said as we both became quiet.

Chase started yelling in excitement and wiggled out of Deandre's arms and lap and got on the floor running around playing with his toys.

"Did you ever sleep with anyone else after me?" He asked seriously making me instantly upset. He's not about to start this shit again, Chase is his son and he's needs to grow the fuck up.

"I'm not going through this shit again. You are not about to question me again and disown him again." I said furiously as I stood up. "No, I wasn't even asking like that." He said grabbing my hands as he stood up then wrapped his arms around my waist and pushed me up against the nearest wall.

I am too mad to look at him so I turned my head and looked to the side as I felt the tears sting my eyes.

Here I am thinking he finally accepted Chase as his son and we were working on rebuilding this trust issue, and he comes out of the blue with this bullshit of an question. Like what the fuck!

The thought of him putting me and Chase through that, after spending time with Chase and Chase growing attached to him, put tears in my eyes.

I felt a tear slide down my face as I am breathing heavily from the lack of oxygen I'm receiving since I'm so upset. "Then what the hell did you mean? Huh? Never mind I don't even want to know, just get the fuck off of me." I said staring into his eyes then looking away.

"This has nothing to do with Chase, if that's what you're thinking. I know he's my son, and I love him. I just wanted to know if you slept with anyone else." He said calmly. I looked him dead in the eyes. "No you asshole, I didn't sleep with anyone else. You are my first and my fucking only. I could've slept with someone else or even be with someone else but-....... Just let me go." I said in spite as he let me go.

"But what? Why didn't you sleep with someone else? Why aren't you with someone else when you can?" He asked as I had my back to him, now standing where Chase is a few feet away from him.

I didn't answer his question, I'm actually trying to avoid answering it because his ego is already too big as it is. I'm just debating if I want to ignore him and stay so Chase can play with him and they can bond, or if I want to take Chase and leave making a dramatic exit.

"But what? Can you answer my question Heavenly?" He asked again walking to me, standing behind me as my back is still towards him. "No I can't answer your question, which is answering your second question." I said folding my arms.

"Why? Because you're afraid?" He asked making me mad. "No! I'm not afraid." I said still with my back to him. "Then why? But what? I just want to know what was coming after the but. Why can't you move on Heavenly? Why won't you if you can? Why didn't you sleep with anyone else if you could?" He asked a little more forcefully making me even madder.

I turned around quickly so that I can see him. "Because I!....because I still fucking love you and I'm not over you! I can't get over you and I can't stop loving you no matter how much bullshit you put me through, and it kills me that I want to move on but I can't.

Trust me if I could, you wouldn't be able to lay on me the way you do or be all up on me. You wouldn't even be able to come in my room yet along lay on my bed, and I damn sure wouldn't be laying in yours. The problem is you're getting too comfortable doing things like kissing me everywhere, touching and feeling on me, holding me, me playing in your hair for you to fall asleep, and our conversations that doesn't have anything to do with Chase. And the only reason you get away with it is because I can't tell you no, and I don't know why." I said quickly growing mad then calming down at every other second.

"You telling me that you can't tell me no?" He asked calmly. "Exactly what I just said, but of course you probably weren't listening." I said annoyed. "Good, then you can't say no to this," he said pulling me towards him aggressively but gently and pressed his lips against mine.

I didn't kiss him back, but he continued to kiss me. I know this is an awkward kiss for him because it is for me. He gripped my ass with his hands, taking hand fulls of it. I couldn't help but moan, it's an instant turn on and he knows it.

He started rubbing his hands on my ass before lifting me up holding my ass. I wrapped my legs around his waist as I started to kiss him back. I can't resist things like this when I'm turned on. It's like I turn into a whole different person with no cares and no fears when I'm turned on.

"Chase,.......Chase is here." I said in between our kiss. He pulled away from the kiss after another minute biting my bottom lip softly but not too softly.

Now I'm all turned on and wet, and can't be satisfied. This is why I need to learn to tell him no, N.O. But it's so hard, especially with him being so good looking and us having chemistry and history together. I fucking love this boy, and I can't stop loving him.

I just stared into his eyes as he stared into mines before putting me down. I don't know what to do, so I just stood there on shaky legs staring up into his eyes. As I was breathing heavily, I started thinking how did he get me here.

If I would've never told him why I said but, then I wouldn't be here looking dumb. Now he knows and he'll damn sure use this to his advantage.