Embrace- Sasunaru (On hold)

Chapter 10- Reality

                  

Once I arrived home I locked myself in the bathroom and examined the small gash of wound on my forehead. To my luck it wasn't a deep wound so there wasn't any real need for stitches. I just washed it and placed a tiny bandage to cover it from filthy bacteria.

I checked the time to find it around 9:10pm as I slowly heard the rumbling noises of fireworks taking off. I peeked out from behind my bedrooms curtain seeing the beautiful shiny colours and patterns of the fire blast off, wishing I was still at the festival with Sasuke and the others.

But no, those drunk dicks had to come and fucking try to rape me and now? I end up worrying about them.

Fuck that's right, what if they go to the cops and change up the whole story? That'd be my fault wouldn't it?

Plus, Itachi wanted to take me to the cops to file a report. Obviously, i didn't want to cause more trouble and commission for everyone.

Luckily enough they were passing by the alley when they heard the commotion. And thank god they did.

I plopped myself down on the bed and glanced down at the cigarette burn from earlier.

What did he get so mad for though? The rape? or maybe the burn?

Could it be both? Even though, why would he go to such limits just for me?

Would he do it for others?

Would've he gotten in so much trouble for others?

Yea, yea he would.

I'm only just a friend to him, how many times do I have to remind myself that there can never be more?

For how long am I going to remain his puppet I wonder?

Maybe I should end this, perhaps soon, very soon

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For Sunday I woke up around 11pm, made myself some breakfast then checked the wound which seemed to be pretty fine.

I didn't really make any plans for that day, so I decided I'd collect my school work early and ended up going over at Shikamarus who was grateful enough to keep my work and also question me about the bandaid on my forehead

I got home at around 4:30pm.

I showered, played with Marco, fed him and decided to lie on the bed scrolling through my phone.

I received 4 missed calls from Sasuke and I felt like a total dick for not answering them, so I decided to reply to his message which asked if I was fine.

I also got a phone call from Mum asking if I had any fun at the festival, which I obviously avoided telling her about the small incident and then she literally spent around half an hour exclaiming how romantic my father was by taking her to a fancy restaurant, and god forbid I ever find out what they have been up to later that night.

I also found myself thinking way more usually on Sasuke, Especially since tomorrow's a school day and I wish I was still infected with a damn cold rather than facing him.

God, I can't understand why I feel like this.

I should be happy and feeling all lucky and shit since he came to my rescue but instead? I feel like I fell into confusion.

For a moment I caught myself off guard and thought he did all of that just because he loved me, how funny does that sound?

Sasuke Uchiha loving me

Funny and wrong. A fairytale that would never come true. Such a hopeless dream.

We were living in lies which both of us were aware of.

I gave him my body and in return he gave me an imagination of love.

But in the end Sai was right "face reality! He's straight! He's using you; He doesn't love you or care about you"

I can't keep living in a lie, I have to move on, erase the dirty pages and start writing in a fresh, clean one.

Build a new life somewhere else.

Make new friends

And perhaps maybe forget about Sasuke

Find love...fall in love with a guy who would be interested in loving me and not just my body

That's what I have to do, it's time to face reality, and there can never be anything of love between me and him.

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Sorry this is super short! But right now I'm having exams at school and I need to study a lot >.<

Next update will hopefully be on the 14th of February, Sunday