Embrace- Sasunaru (On hold)

Chapter 11- Ass hole

                  

New chapter's here guys!!! Yay! Kind of short but I will hopefully update in a week or so!

Love ya all and enjoy this drama~~

I woke up at around 6:30 am which was pretty unusual but for today I have to go collect some papers on apartments and colleges around Japan, maybe even a Tokyo college drop out.

Yea worst thing, I have pretty much gave in to the thought of moving away, starting new and forget all about Sasuke. It'd obviously take some time, tears and even sadness but once time passes, I'm sure I'll be over him for good.

That's what I'll keep telling myself until I know for sure that I feel absolutely emotionless towards him.

As for today and for the rest of the few weeks till I settle all of this, I'll just end up avoiding him.

I still have to tell mum and Dad about all of this and I got a pretty much a good idea how mum will take it, Bad.

She was upset when I moved out then how would she feel if I travel away? After all I'm only 17!

But with time and faith, I'm sure I can do this.

After showering and eating some breakfast, I left to the college office and collected a few papers on collages. I'm currently studying arts and design and luckily I easily found a college of arts in Osaka as well as a university.

Osaka was my best shot, the apartments would probably cost the same as one in Tokyo and I'm sure with a part time job I can easily rent one.

After collecting the papers I went back home and left them on the coffee table, packed my school bag and left for another day of unwanted school.

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I have been avoiding Sasuke all day long while earning confused looks from Sai. What can I say about Sasuke? He wasn't ready about to give up from grabbing my attention. He kept walking by my side talking to me about random shit. It wasn't like him at all; usually I'd be the one who'd walk with him goofing around about every little thing.

It was already break time and as usual, we were sitting at our lunch table with our whole group. I kept my head low while I nibbled on my cereal bar , wanting to avoid any source of social communication.

"Hey Naruto, Can I talk with you?"

I looked at Sasuke while he gave me a hopeful looked.

I silently groaned not wanting to speak to him, Jesus Christ I am seriously trying to move on here, don't give me that look.

"Whatever" I mumbled while shrugging.

He nodded and grabbed my wrist "Where are you two going?" Kiba asked. "Just a quick trip to the bathroom, don't worry about us"

Sasuke started walking away gripping on my left wrist while I slowly tugged it away not wanting to feel his touch.

Once we got to the bathroom he checked if there was anyone in the stalls and once he made sure it was empty, he closed the door behind us.

"What do you want?" I asked while moving my gaze to the floor. He sighed and shook his head. "Why are you ignoring me?" I should've expected that he'd bring this up.  "I'm not ignoring you, you're imagining things" He shook his head "Naruto look at me" He stood in front of me and he gently gripped both of my shoulder with his hands "I said look at me Naruto"

Is this what he wants? For me to look at him? Tell him what's bugging me? Why I'm avoiding him and why I'm acting this way? Then so be it, I'll tell him, I'll tell him my reasons and end it all today.

I looked up at him with teary eyes

"Do you want me to tell you Sasuke?" He stared wide eyed at why I was about to cry but then soon he gave me a nod wanting a reason for my acts.

"Because I'm tired of all this bullshit!"

"What bullshit? Explain to me what bullshit you're tired of, is it my bullshit?" I nodded shaking his hands of my shoulders

"Yes Sasuke, your bullshit! Your fucking bullshit of pleasures of using my body" He rolled his eyes at me "Not this again. I thought you understood when I told you that I felt nofeelings towards you, nothing. Even so, I can never be with you"

I nodded, tears streaming down my face. "I know that, that's the reality isn't it?"

He stood silent looking at me. He soon sighed and moved forward bringing his thumb to my cheek wiping my tears away.  "You knew that from the start Naruto" He moved his hands down my chest bringing his lips on mine. This, this is all he wants. Sex for his pleasures, even now, even when I expressed how I want to love him, he only thinks about his pleasures.

I can't believe how I fell in love with such an asshole.

I slammed my hands in his chest pushing him away.

"You don't get it Sasuke and you never will understand my love towards you. But I can't remain like this. I just can't stay your 'Friends with benefits'"

"What are you stating?"

"I'm done with this game, that's what I'm stating. Go find another fuck boy, I'm sure anyone will do, right?"

I turned around unlocking the door leaving the bathroom.

What a real asshole that I fell in love with