I Swear I Have a Life : False Alarm, a memoir

Life is inevitable.

Why do bad things happen to good people?

That's a question I probably can never answer because well, I don't know the answer to that. It obviously happens and is quite terrifying to me. You see it all over the news and it breaks your heart. You often feel pity for the family members of good people that have horrible luck..of course instead people try to focus on the more positive things for example: hey, at least now they're in a better place. We can only imagine what those people are probably going through............grief.

Grief, it's a pretty scary thing especially when it happens out of no where. This is the part where I start writing about a sad story so...warning: Have some tissues nearby from this point on. Don't say I didn't warn you! *pushes back glasses*

A little less then a month ago heaven received 3 beautiful angels. They are special angels. They were my cousin's best friend and her two children. I can only imagine what it must have been for my cousin because it hit her the hardest. Of course naturally it hit me too. All I thought about was all of the times I've seen them. The two kids and the mother. Out of all the times I specifically remember one of them. My two little cousins, my big cousin, the 3 of them, and I were going to the park. I remember seeing those beautiful faces of Saniyah and Messiah they were two amazing kids.

While my two cousins and Saniyah played and my cousin and her best friend were studying for some college test, I was taking care of Messiah because that little boy wanted to explore so instinctively I helped him. His laugh can make your heart get all warm in a matter of seconds I'm not joking. That day makes me smile because that day was also the day one of my cousins got stuck in the baby swing and out anxiousness she peed. Oh, that day was hilarious.

I like to focus on the positive things of that moment because after that maybe about half a year later My cousin's best friend Sasha and her two beautiful kids Saniyah and Messiah died in a car accident. The tailpipe was blocked with snow and ice and Carbon monoxide built up. You can probably guess what happened from there.

I cried when I found out what happened. It's horrible. Anyone who loses someone they care about most likely have felt the same thing. My friends all knew about it too. So did my family. The good part about the whole thing is that we all had someone that supported us and helped us through a time of grief and sadness.

I will always have that day in the park in my head because it was the last time I saw them, but again like most people I stick with the positive things. Some of the things that happened that day were eating ice cream, trying to get my cousin out of the swing, seeing everyone smile, and most importantly enjoying that day.

As long as you hold on to those good times, they are still with you. That's something I'll never forget. It's engraved deep in my mind and I know it's not leaving anytime soon. I won't let it because I have a strong hold of all my memories. That's something important that I will keep doing and will never stop doing. Holding on to my memories as if they happened yesterday. It all makes sense.

Everything happens for a reason so I assume that that is why bad things happen to good people. Maybe they weren't happy with their life so somehow Mother Nature or God (if you believe in a god) gave them better opportunities and accomplishments. It all makes sense if you really think about it. Life is truly unfair.

Rest in piece Sasha, Saniyah, and Messiah. We miss you.