Hollywood Heights

Chapter 40

Loren threw the note onto the table and without looking back ran away from the table and straight into her room. Melissa was on babysitting duty and had taken the girls out for a walk so when Loren got into her room she was completely alone. Loren threw herself onto the bed and began sobbing, while she was lying there she remembered all her good times with Eddie. 

Winning his contest, being apart of his music video, playing Foosball on Melissa's birthday, meeting him at their spot, Eddie visiting her at the coffee shop, Eddie sending a car for her on his birthday, his birthday dinner, their first kiss, Eddie being in her first recording video, the beach bungalow, their first duet, Eddie disappearing, seeing Eddie again, her first tour, getting engaged and then Eddie not showing up to their wedding, being pregnant all alone and having her children without him. 

At that moment reality hit her, Loren sat up, wiped away her tears and walked back out to the living room where Max and Nora were sitting together looking real worried. Melissa had returned with the girls and was playing with them on the floor when Loren walked in.

Loren: Melissa, would you mind taking the girls to my room and playing with them there for a while there is something important i have to speak to my parents about.

Melissa: Sure Lo, are you okay?

Loren: Yeah, i'll explain later.

Melissa got up off the floor hugged Loren tightly, gathered up the girls and walked into the nursery with the girls. Nora was the first to break the ice.

Nora: Loren, honey are you okay?

Loren: I am mom.

Nora: What have you decided?

Loren: Max, i don't want to hurt you by my decision but i have made a decision that i would appreciate if you would both respect it.

Max: Of course Loren.

Loren: You were both here when i read the note Eddie wrote, and i am sure that while i was in my bedroom you read it again yourselves. At first i wanted to believe every word he wrote, that he never wanted any of it to happen, that he was set up and that it was a huge mistake. A part of me does believe him, and that is the part of me that was thinking clearly and logically and it helped me make my decision. I know Eddie, and i know that he would never want to hurt me, but for some reason, no matter how hard he tries all he does is hurt me. When i told him over a year ago that i would marry him i was agreeing to live with the craziness that defines him.

Max: And? has that changed?

Loren: Kind of

Nora: What does that mean?

Loren: That had nothing happened between us and we would have gotten married i would have totally lived with everything that makes Eddie, Eddie. And that regardless of if he meant to ditch the wedding or not he ditched it and that i cannot overlook, not anymore. I love Eddie and i always will but i can no longer be part of the roller coaster he calls his life. I have decided that for me and the sake of our children i will not listen to the recording.

Max: Are you sure that's what you want?

Loren: Dad, i am positive, look i will always love Eddie but i can no longer hope and wait for what we once had, i have to move on and the only way i know how to do that is to stay here in Brown get my degree and give my children the best life they can ever dream of.

Max: Do you want me to tell Joe or do you just want to leave Eddie hanging and hoping that maybe one day you will forgive him.

Loren: Can i write Eddie a letter that you can give Joe?