Supernatural X Reader Drabble

Castiel 06

{The Broken Souled}

[WARNING! SEASON 11 SPOILERS AHEAD! PROCEED WITH CAUTION!!!!!!]

"Y/N? Y/N, where are you?" I could hear his gruff voice calling for me over and over and over again. But it wasn't him. It wasn't my lovely and beautiful Castiel. It was that monster- that beast Lucifer.

"Give him back! You aren't my Castiel you monster! You're the lowest of low Lucifer!" He chuckled. He took steps closer and closer and closer to me. I took some steps back to get away from him. Eventually a cold hard wall was at my back.

"So you figured it out. Even faster than the Winchesters. The eldest one has a bond with my pathetic brother, yet he didn't notice it was no longer his precious Castiel in this body." He cupped my cheek.

"NO! DON'T TOUCH ME!" I screamed. I batted at his hands. The same hands that used to hold me tight. The same body that cuddled me after every nightmare. The same body that kissed me and I felt more alive then ever. But now that's gone. Now what has been replaced for this body is a hatred. A hatred for the feathery asshole that took Castiel away from me.

I bolted upright in bed. These nightmares had been plaguing me for months, even after Lucifer was back in the cage and Castiel was returned to the body of Jimmy Novak. I was still afraid to approach him.

The terrible things Lucifer did to me. They were unbearable. He raped me in Castiel's body. He tortured me psychologically. He broke me physically and mentally until I was just a shell of a human being. All in Castiel's body. It made me afraid of the person I love the most.

Castiel popped into the room. "Another nightmare?" He asked softly. I nodded with tears streaming down my cheeks. I haven't told him what Lucifer did to me. I was never planning to. "What did my brother do to you? Why are you afraid to touch me?" The questions caught me off guard. It was as if he was reading my mind.

"H-He raped me. He abused me and beat me. He tied me to a chair and flayed me then healed me just to do it again. He broke my spirits Cas. All in the body I have come to love because you were it it!" It was silent after I finished and Castiel's face hardened.

"I'm so sorry. I love you and I would never hurt you. I will tell you this until the end of time or until you are okay being around me, whichever comes first." He said it so powerful and confident. Somehow, I broke into a small smile. Castiel may have the ability to fix my broken soul.