The Depth Of A Single Mind

Songs

Dear Song listeners and over thinkers,

Admit it, there is at least one specific song you hear and it brings so many emotions. Perhaps it makes you really sad, like depressed sad. Like the sad where you want to disappear. Or maybe it brings a smile across your face. It makes your arms and body itch to move to it. Maybe it has some upbeat music. Whatever it makes you feel, you feel it. Everytime. You cant help it. Because, well if you could you probably would. Maybe you dont even know the lyrics to the song, just that it reminds you of something or someone else. Maybe it makes you feel regret, hurt betrayal. Or joy, happiness, and thankful for what it makes you think of. Well, I dont know many songs that bring me intense happiness. Trust me, there are quiet a few that do. But there are also many that dont so much. Well, perhaps I should explain why I wrote this all down.

I was sitting in a chair, because well what else would I be sitting in? I had my music on and I was working on a paper that was due. I cant remember what the paper was about, but I didn't finish it. A song came on. It had a long intro. I know the band that sings it. But this song was different then their others. It was slower, deeper. I dont even know the words it said. I do know, that it became increasingly harder to breathe in. And because I couldn't breathe in the air I needed, I couldn't breathe out. My mind started spinning and I wasn't completely sure why I wanted to cry. I had to stand and walk, because it was time to go and there were other people around. It was a tidal wave outside. I couldn't move. The only reason I didnt collapse onto the ground was because all the other compact bodies around me. I stop and look towards you. I use what strength I do have to fight my way towards you. I know I wont have time to talk, and even if I did I don't think I could speak without bursting into tears. You turn because your talking to someone and don't see me. Stopping in front of you, I gently bring my fingers to the front of your jacket. Fumbling with the zipper and strings of it. My face had to of been red, because I could feel heat radiating off of it. I'm surprised nobody around me felt burning because of it.

You might not of even realized that I wanted you to stop. That I wanted you to notice something was wrong. Id like to think you noticed but wasn't able to do anything because of how quickly the crowd swept you away. Because after all, the world doesn't revolve around a single person, and no matter how much one wishes they could pause time, they just cant.

Maybe you didn't notice, maybe you thought I was just annoying you. I don't Know. I do know the minutes dragged by after that, as did I.

Yours truly.