The Depth Of A Single Mind

Accidental Truth

Dear people,

Do you think a lot? I personally spend a lot of time locked behind bars in my own mind. I can some how manage to scare myself half way to death just by thinking. I cant be the only one scared of their own mind, can I? I can literally be sitting in the happiest place in the world and be the most depressed human ever. I often found myself questioning life, why are we here? Does it get better? Is there a reason to all this? Why? I often think like this and, that's when I end up starting to find it hard to breathe. When I find myself slipping away. My chest will feel constricted. I cant get enough air into my lungs. Basically I'm trying to say, I have a panic attack. Now this may not be common for you, but it is for me.

What do I do to help with this? I try getting a hold of my friends, and I am so blessed to have them. But if I cant I have to remember the truth. Now you all may not be Christian but I am. Andi know I may offend some by saying this. But I mean, I'm not holding you down and telling you that you have to read this. But its the truth, and it helps. A lot. In fact, being saved literally saved my life. Now I don't mean about after I die, well that too. But I mean recently, like I wouldn't be writing this right now or breathing. I may be breathing, I don't know. But I wouldn't be who I am. I would be another person. Maybe druggie, drunk, unexplained suicide, I don't know and I don't want to know. I just know, in the end it will all be ok.

I just think its fascinating really. How we can scare ourselves so much. How we can have a single thought that literally terrifies us to death. How we can question everything and everyone. How we shape our own realities. What does your reality consist of?

Truly Yours.