Me, Myself, and I

Crushes

Crushes are my weakness.

Wether I have a crush, or one of my friends has a crush. They control how I act, and think.

I make stupid decisions when I fancy someone. Like falling against a locker when I see them in the hallway. Laughing so hard I cry, in front of them. You know, stuff like that.

Embarrassing situations gravitate towards me in general. Including a crush or not.

Ive never had a crush, and had managed to play it off cool. I always find a way to make the situation worse for everyone involved. I'm shaking my head just thinking about how awkward I am.

Honestly, I don't know why I am allowed to be socially interactive at all.

Back to topic.

Currently I'm head over heels for some guy. I don't know what to call him in this, privacy wise, but I guess I will just call him 'Steve'.

Steve is hard to describe.

Steve just makes me want to crawl in a hole and die. I embarrass myself so much, I wonder why he still even talks to me.

Recently we've been talking a lot more than in the past, and I am so confused on how I have managed to keep my cool around him.

I'm sure I will talk about Steve more later on but that's it for now.