In The Closet

Boyfriend Knows I'm Bi!!!!!!!!

So, I've been dating my boyfriend for only half a month but we've really liked each other for nearly half a year (he sure likes to make me wait, doesn't he?).

Well, I've been meaning to tell him that I'm bisexual but I just have been too scared of his reaction. I asked him once, over text, what he thought of homosexuals.

He wasn't on his phone at the time and I was very bored and afraid of what he would say so I kept bombing his phone with random, funny messages. He doesn't mind when I do that, actually finds it quite funny. And he usually doesn't answer all of the questions I ask during those bombings so I wasn't too worried about him not answering that one.

Well, today we were talking about the adult section in Spencer's.

I said, "I'm sure Courtney owns at least one of every toy in there."

I understand where he was coming from but I was still a bit confused at first when he said, "I don't even want to know how you know that."

My mouth had already said the words before my mind could intervene. Half jokingly, I say, "Don't worry. She just told me; I only do bi shit with special friends." (I don't actually do bi stuff with any of my friends unless you include oogling over women with Kaitlyn).

It was the rather obvious hint that I wished he would take as full sarcasm and laugh it off but his face turns serious.

"Is that why you asked me what I thought of homosexuals?" He always has to be so smart and notice things.

Still scared of his reaction, I ask, "Would you mind?"

And he gets mad. And it scares the crap out of me because I think he's going to hate me now because I'm bi. But really, he thought I was saying that I had cheated on him with a girl.

And I told him no. No, no, no, no. I would NEVER cheat on him. And we just have this huge miscommunication that freaks me the fuck out.

I'm not sure whether he hates me, doesn't believe I can even be bi (like there is no in between), or thinks I cheated.

He gets frustrated and says just to forget it. I know that's terrible idea and that you should never leave a domestic unfinished because it will just lead to more problems.

So, I sit is down and tell him that we are going to talk this out.

So, we do. He explains what I didn't understand and I explain what he didn't understand and we are happy now. It was the first time we ever fought and we haven't since and I hope we never do again.

Turns out, he just thought that I cheated on him, which is good that he isn't homophobic but bad that he actually thought I had cheated on him. I can't believe he'd ever think that but I'm happy we got it all worked out. And I thought he was angry at me for being bi but no, he's fine with it. It's actually just another thing to add to the long list of his turn ons.

I don't know if I've mentioned this yet but I'm British but live in America. I hope to be able to move back after school but I don't like to think that far when I have a boyfriend due to the separation it would surely cause. But anyway, the reason I'm telling you this is because my accent really turns him on. No clue why but it does and I have a lot of fun with it.

Hehehe

Maybe I'll make a list of turn ons eventually. His and mine.

Have any weird turn ons? Comment it and share the weirdness.