In The Closet

Hello, This Is Me

Warning: I am in no way rated PG. At best, I am PG-13. So, don't yell at me for language and/or sexual references or even straight up talking about sex. Not that it would be very straight if you don't already have that figured out.

Me,me, me, and some more me.

(This is so much like a blog. Btw, I would love to be a YouTube vlogger once I'm older/have more time)

So, basically, I'm a girl that likes girls and boys.

Of course it's not that simple. Some days, men disgust me extremely but women are goddesses. But other days, mens' strength and masculinity hypnotizes me. And even sometimes, I'm repulsed by anything living.

It seems to be split a bit like this:
Pro.
- Womens' curves.
- Mens' masculinity.
- Confidence.
- Dominance.
- lust/romance.
- Intelligence.
- Funny.
-CUDDLING (Omegod!💞)

Con.
- Bitchyness
- Dickheadedness
- Weakness
- Lack of lust/motivation
- Stupidity
- Too Serious
- Angry/Likes to argue

Mental aspects are more important when deciding whether I like you or not, although physical appearance does get my attention. I am often more attracted to women though.

Yet, I don't date as many women because I'm not open about my sexuality. My school is extremely homophobic and so I will wait until college. I'll be open from the start. Even if it causes hate.

Right now, only my one openly bisexual friend knows. She's known for years and hasn't told Courtney, both of our best friend.

I know Courtney wouldn't mind if she new; I've hinted at it quite a lot. The reasons I never told her is
1) It really doesn't matter. Nothing should change between us.
2) Every time I hinted at it, she would be overly nice and feminine with me. I don't like it.
So, our friendship would change. Which I don't want.

Anyway, continuing on. About slightly masculine women and feminine men, they turn me ON!

Oh God.

I would fuck nearly every one I've met. You would not believe me, but I've met tons, including usually gays and lesbians, who literally had to push me off them (I'm 1/2 dominant and 1/2 submissive depending on my confidence). I go animalistic sometimes.

I love being bisexual. I've always liked women as well as men and have been rather confident in my sexuality since I figured it out.

It wasn't the best way to notice I'm bi, but effective non the less. That's for another chapter though. Not one of my favorite things yup talk about.

So, back to me. I have a boyfriend at current. It confuses me on those days that guys just aren't attractive. I look at him and wonder 'What do I even like about this person?' It doesn't help that he's a bit pimply sometimes.

But then, I remember all of the things I love about him. How he never fails to make me laugh, his cute, slightly shy smile, him never being afraid to take my hand, always talking to me (for hours and hours), he loves what I love (animals, video games, DC, Marvel, ext. (We're nerds)), I know he loves me and he always shows it, getting me surprise presents for no reason, baking me my favorite desserts, I can go on forever.

I just love him.

You can't tell but I'm taking a moment right now for all my lovely feels for him.

💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙

Well, I think that's plenty about me. On to the funny stories!! ✊ (fist pump)