Little Things (Helsa)

What Just Happened

(HANS)

I couldn't believe I had just done that. What was wrong with me? Did I seriously have the nerve to kiss the woman I almost killed. Not to mention she could split my skull with a flick of her hand. I couldn't figure out where it had come from. She kept asking questions as if she really cared for me, and I knew that wasn't true. It was like she was leading me on so she could have an excuse to get rid of me. I'd never be able to ask her now why she had wanted to help. I wouldn't be surprised if I was hung in the middle of the night. After I had kissed her I pulled away and tried to apologize. My voice cracked every time I spoke, which left me even more desperate to leave. All I could do was race to the door and ask the guard to take me back to my cell. I didn't want to hurt her, and if she found out anymore or started to feel for me I would. As much as I was the loving the life I had, I knew I was going to die. There was nothing Elsa could do to change that. If we fell in love, she would be heartbroken the rest of her life for executing me. I would just have to suffer in silence and live out my life as best I could. A few miserable weeks would be nothing to me in the end, as long as I knew Elsa would be happy.

(ELSA)

I couldn't even react. I just stood there, probably with a look of shock; staring at him. I hadn't seen it coming at all. But once it had happened it was all I could think about. His lips had been so warm on mine, and it felt so natural. I had almost not wanted him to stop. His hands had felt so cautious on my cheek, like he didn't want to scare me off. I almost leaned into it, but thought I'd better not. It was brief, but just enough to make a statement. I hadn't felt alone for the first time in years when he was kissing me. But then he had run out of the room, like he was ashamed of what he had done. Things could never be between us. He was supposed to be my enemy. Yet he had shown that he might actually care for me. I didn't want to believe it. I had never been great at flirting or noticing flirting, which would explain why Hans' kiss had me so off-balance. This kiss had changed things. It might have been obvious to Anna what was going on, but I couldn't figure out what it meant. Did he actually love me, or was he trying to play with me?

Then the image of him in my nightmares came. Of course he was trying to play with me; I was such an idiot. How could he ever like me, let alone love me. I was a monster to him; he wanted me out of the way so he could rule Arendelle. I stormed into my office and wrote letters to the members of my council. It was a short letter, saying only "Come to dinner tonight, no exceptions!" I signed and sealed them, and gave them to Hendricks, who was a little nervous about all the frost in my office. I told him the letters were to be sent out, and he nodded and left the room briskly. I was not going to let Hans ruin my kingdom again, even if it was the last thing I did. I went out to the guard and asked him to fetch the doctor. He left and came back, saying the doctor would be in my room shortly. I nodded and returned to my bed and relaxed. I tried so hard to not get upset. How could Hans seriously still be that cruel? And Anna thought he had changed. Pft, the only thing that had changed was the woman he tried to court. As soon as the doctor came I would prepare for tonight's dinner and make ready a jury for  trial. I refused to let him get in my head. I would start his trial tomorrow, and I wouldn't be helping him anymore. If my people wanted him dead I would personally tie the rope around his neck. There was no way I would ever let him plot against my people as he was; not while I had the power to stop him.

(HANS)

I was literally such an idiot. How could I ever have hoped she could love a monster like me? And then of course I had to run out of the room. I had felt so broken. My sudden kiss had proved to me what I feared all along. I was in love with the queen. It consumed my entire body, and I could think of nothing else but her. I stopped eating that day. How could I live with myself if she ever found out. I could just starve myself to death and do the job for her so she wouldn't have to kill me herself. It would probably be easier this way, as long as she didn't find out what I was doing. I was determined to never hurt her again, and if killing myself for her was the only way, then so be it. I only had a few days left at the most anyway, I could handle no food or water. I would have more time to draw now. And more time to watch Arendelle in all of its beauty.

Night passed, and I heard coaches arriving. Was Elsa having another party..? I ignored the thought of Elsa and continued drawing my landscape of the local village. The guard brought in my dinner tray, and I thanked him. When he walked out of sight I carried the tray over to the window and threw it to the ground. I put the tray back on my desk and continued drawing. The moon was high in the sky when I started putting my drawing supplies away. I stacked all of my work into a pile and organized it. I had drawn so many pictures in the time I had been here, and I hoped someone would have the chance to see them before they were burned and destroyed. It felt as if I was missing one of my drawings. I shifted through them again and found that I was actually one piece of paper short. I tried to figure out which it could be, and I was suddenly filled with dread. It was the portrait of Elsa.

(ELSA)

My dinner had gone well. The council was on board with me for my plans on how to deal with Hans. I wanted to go up to his cell and rub it in that he wasn't outsmarting me this time. I saw right through his little "I'm in love" plan, as did my council. I could just smack Hans. He really was an ungrateful cactus. And now that I knew what he was up to I would never let him hurt Anna. He would be long dead by the time she got back and by then everything would be settled. I always tried to never be cruel, but for this once I was truly hoping Hans would get the ultimate punishment; execution. I had informed my council of all Hans had done and they agreed to move on with a trial. Our jury would be summoned tomorrow, and Hans would be taken care of once and for all.

Once everyone had left, I went into my office to write one more letter. It was to King Rovan. I wrote as if I wasn't eager to kill his brother, but simply stated:

     King Rovan,

     Your brother's trial will begin tomorrow. My apologies for the process taking so long, my sister was married and I was recently taken ill.

     Thank you for your patience, I will contact you soon.

     Sincerely, Queen Elsa

I left it on my desk for Hendricks to take in the morning, and went to my room. I changed into my night gown. I couldn't fall asleep. My doctor had given me a clean bill of health, but I was restless. I thought of Hans in his cell, and figured I would visit him. I still had yet to actually talk to him about what had happened, and maybe by talking to him I could figure out why I still couldn't forget his kiss.