Black Is All That I See(Denis Stoff)

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(⚠️⚠️Trigger Warning⚠️⚠️)

I was walking in cycles around the bus, when the door brushed open and Ben ran out worried. When he saw me, he grabbed my hand and pushed me in the bus. Really loud screaming was to be heard, but it suddenly stopped.
I ran on the bus to find James and Sam looking worried. And then I understood everything. Charlotte.
I ran in the bunk area, ignoring the others. Cameron was standing next to her bunk, really really really pale.
-Dennis... He began, but I pushed him away.
Charlotte was lying in her bed deathly pale, with her beautiful eyes closed. She was holding James' sleeping pils in her right arm and in the other there were three pills left. I screamed.
The other guys rushed in the room and pushed me away from the bunk, while the paramedics took her away. Cameron went with her in the ambulance, because I wasn't in state to go and James,Ben and Sam were trying to calm me down.
I sobbed in Ben's T-Shirt. I was screaming and screaming and screamed until I lost my voice. Once I had calmed down a bit I went closer to her bunk and saw a letter with my name on it.

Dennis,
If you are reading this, it means that I've done it. It's not your fault, it's my demons'. I couldn't handle it anymore! The pain, the blur in my head, everything. I wish you could save me.
There's something lost inside  and
I'm scared it might kill me.
All my life I've needed you with me
You've always let me down
But still I try,Dennis! I love you,Dennis! I'm sorry!

With love,
Charlotte!

Once again the tears stared falling down my cheeks. I wanted to scream, but couldn't. My throat was too sore for even talking. I heard a phone going off and then Ben came in the bunk area again with tears in his eyes.
I lost her.