The Runaway Boy // Jalex

beautiful barakat

"Here's your holiday hope you enjoy it this time you gave it all away"

Alex's POV:

When I woke up alone fear overtook me. Where the hell is jack. I jump out of bed and see a note on the wall. Maybe I should stop worrying so much. I take out my guitar and continue practising chords. All that came in my mind is jack. How he looked like an adorable skunk. His dark eyes that shined brighter than the sun. The way when he smiles the corners of his mouth raise rather quickly and laughs like an angel. My inspiration comes and I start singing
"You're brighter than the sun
Prettier than the Stars
My spongebob to my Patrick
We go together or we don't go down
You don't believe in self-esteem
I don't know why you don't see yourself the way I see you
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
If you go
What would I do
Because all I care about is
You" I hear the front door open. I continue singing
"The way you giggle when you smile
The way you look beautiful even when you cry
I wish you saw yourself how I saw you
To me you aren't another runaway
You're someone I want to stay
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
Barakat" My door opens and jack walks in with that little giggle and awkward smile.
"You are beautiful jack I'm not lying" he blushes slightly and sits next to me on the bed.
"You okay?" He nods with a fake smile.
"What's bothering you bub?" I place a hand on his shoulder and rub it.
"I was just thinking about my past bad events" I give him a sad smile leaving my arm on his shoulder
"Forget about it. Fuck it. Fuck the past think of the present. The past is gone. Think of the good past not the bad past. Like us. Think of the fun times we've had even though we only met recently." He smiles shyly and looks down at the floor then back up at me.
"Thanks alex, you always know the right things to say" I give him a fond grin.
"Anytime jack"
Its strange. How much I care about him. I never really cared about anyone half as much as jack. All I want is to hold him forever and protect him.
I don't understand much at the moment. I'm still young. I'm still learning. I'm still me. Society has gotten much worse. Jack is literally a walking travesty. He needs me.
I peck his cheek and cuddle him for a while to break the tension. My chin rests on his shoulder as we lay down. He could have died. I saved him. He could still die. One thing I know is that its never too late to die, but once you fall there's no going back up. So he better keep his cute ass on the ground.
I don't blame mum for Thinking he's my boyfriend. He's cute, cuddly and adorable. Who wouldn't want to be his boyfriend. Then again who would hurt such a beautiful young boy. Its not often I'd take a stranger home and invite him to live with me. Who does that anyway. Me. There's something special about him. I can't figure out what.
My thoughts are interrupted by jacks soft voice.
"Hey Alex" I hum in response.
"Thank you"
"For what"
"For everything. You've given me so fucking much feelings of joy recently and you keep me alive so thanks for literally every fucking thing" I give him a quick kiss on the cheek
"Dude I will give up so much for you to be safe because I care about you. I'm glad you're happier now. They say running away isn't what you're meant to do but you weren't happy there but now you smile, laugh and you're happier. So fuck everyone else its just you and me against this cruel fucking world" he smiles and holds shuffles closer into me.
"I.. Thanks alex" he stutters and just simply says two words
"Anytime buddy"

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"Alexander!" Frank yells from downstairs.
"Fuck off" I shout. Jack looks at me in concern so I kiss his nose with an assuring smile as he turns away trying to hide a blush. I chuckle at the awkward boy.
"Alexander" his voice roars from downstairs.
"Alex you should go downstairs" jack whispers face still slightly red.
"Okay see you in a few" I hop out of the bed and walk down the stairs into the kitchen.
"Get me a beer" he simply says drunk as always.
"Why don't you get it yourself you fat drunk fuck" I shout. He sighs
"Mum left you a note in the kitchen" I nod and go inside. There's no paper. I hear the crack of glass and feel a sharp pain in my leg as a large glass shard gets thrown into my leg. I shout in agony
"You bitch!" I yell removing the shard. It left a large bleeding cut.
"Your mum left.." He says in a sad tone forgetting he just stabbed me
"She wouldn't leave without me!" I remark
I finally notice the paper on the desk. I ignore the pain in my knee and limp to the table.
Dear Alex
I'm so sorry. I'm so so so so sorry. I love you baby remember that but I can't handle this family anymore. I'm moving and you'll never see me again. No one will. Forget about me son. Frank won't hurt you. Nobody will. When I'm gone just carry on I promise you'll be okay.
I know I'm the worst mum in the world but I've left you lots of money to live on if frank won't buy you things..

I'm so so sorry
I love you forever
Goodbye x

There's a damp spot on the end which I'm guessing was her tears. I look at my leg where another few shards stick in
"Will you fucking stop!" I growl hopping out of the room
"Its your fault she's gone" his voice echo's.
"Its yours"
"You're just another fag who will die alone because the only fags people like are cigars and you're worse than any of the fags in the world. You're worthless. People don't care about you. You disgust me" my heart shatters.
He never cared about my sexuality. I'm just another fag.
I slam the door and remove the glass from my legs and hop upstairs

Just another fag

A worthless fag