Sweet Pain

Rather Lose Everything

Penny

I didn't mean to fall in love with Kyle. It just happened. I'm not sure when I knew for sure, but after awhile it was just a normal feeling. He returned the affection. Being in love made us forget our differences. It made us feel normal. When we were together we didn't have to live up to our labels. He didn't have to be the "Football Player" and I didn't have to be the "Shy Girl". We could laugh at anything we wanted, talk about everything, and not worry about what others would say. Falling in love by accident was the best thing that happened to us. I never regretted it until we told people. They all thought I was his charity case and that it would only last for two weeks at the most. When it lasted longer it started to hurt his reputation. I didn't want him to lose that because of me. So I told him that I would rather break up and keep his reputation than stay together and have him become an outsider. I saw how it hurt him, but I honestly didn't see any other way.

Kyle

I didn't mean to fall in love with Penny. She stumbled into my heart and made me feel like a whole different person. With her I could be me, with no expectations. It was perfect and there were no regrets. At least not for me. When we started to tell people they called her a charity case and they would ask me why I was dating her. I told them I dated her because she was perfect and that I loved her. They would just laugh at me. Even when it started to bring down my reputation I didn't care. She did though, she cared a lot. She told me that she would rather break up with me so I could keep my stupid reputation. She didn't know that I would rather lose everything and keep her. With her I could live, but without her I can't.

Two Weeks Later

Penny

I feel like my heart has been ripped out and then stomped on. I know what I did is something I will always regret, but it was for the best. Wasn't it? Kyle always tries to get my attention in the hallways, but I always ignore him and fight back tears. I thought this would be easier, but honestly it makes it so much harder.

Kyle

Penny ignores me in the hallways, but I can see the tears she fights back when she walks away. This is hurting her too. I knew I had to get her alone so I can tell her how much I love her. So that's what I did. I saw her leave the lunchroom and I followed her. I caught her in the library and when she saw me she didn't shy away. She kissed me and then held me so tight. I held her tight to, I never wanted to let her go. As she cried in my arms I told her that I would rather lose everything then lose her. She nodded once, almost unnoticeable. She told me how sorry she was and that she regrets saying what she said. I just kiss her again and walk her out of the library and into the lunchroom. We never let go of each other's hands.