Goodbye

Chasing stars

I had two dreams.
The beginning was identical

We were in your car
And I could've swore the stars were following us
I told you I wanted to climb up there and hold them
You laughed at me
But stopped the car to let me watch

I stood on the roof of you car with my arms outstretched
You watched me spin in circles
As I stared upwards

I felt like I was in a vortex and I was going to be taken away

Then I cried,
I cried because the world was so small
And I wanted it too be too big again
I cried because I was so low
And I wanted to reach upwards and grab the nearest star and climb them all the way to the next galaxy
I laughed at myself then
Closed my eyes, imagined myself just grabbing stars. 

After that these two dreams diverge

In the first you got me back in the car
We talked,
Talked about our past our futures
I told you that my future was too gloomy to walk into
You told me your past was too gloomy to look at

You promised me a brighter future
And the stars shinned brighter with every word we shared

Then we went home,
Nothing more than friends
And you left me at my driveway.

I awoke expecting to feel like hell
You left me on the edge of nothing,
But I felt like something was going right.
I felt like something with us was going to be okay.

The second dream you laid with me on the roof,
I told you no one else felt right against my skin
You told me no one else felt right when they climb into yours
You told me I was beautiful
I told you I loved you

The stars shinned brighter every moment we sat there

When you kissed me there,
On the roof of your car,
It felt like everything was right again

I awoke expecting this change in feeling
Like this time Id feel better than the last one,
But instead,
There was nothing new

My life without you is a movie full of plot holes
And I dont think there's a chance that anyone will watch it without you

But I realized then I dont need to love you anymore.
You dont need me to love you anymore.
We dont need to love each other
We never did
The love was simply a bonus.
One we may be blessed enough to get back

So I went outside,
And I looked up
The stars shinned brighter every time I blinked

I reached out my hand and slowly closed my fist around the brightest star
I closed my eyes, and unleashed the star

Saying
"It'll all be okay"

I sent it to you

I hope you got it