I Love You, Jacob

Chapter 3-

Bella's P.O.V

I don't know what is going on with me. I'm not sure if I like this. But I'm not sure  that I don't. How can I tell Jacob that I love him. Well that I think I love him. NO I KNOW I love him. This is so confusing.

Maybe If I talk to Jacob this will all make sense. I decided to call Jake and to see what he was up to. 

-ring ring. ring ring.- "Hello?"

"Wassup Jake"

"Hey Bells nothing much. Just about to go buy this part for the engine i'm remodeling."

"Your alway doing something constructive. Have you ever thought about being a low life?" i asked sarcastically.

"Ya maybe then we can both be low lives."

" There you go thinking your funny again."

"Hmmm thinking or knowing?"

"So what else are you doing today jakey?"

"Going to see my girl of course."

I like the sound of that. Me? Jacob's girl? I guess I could get used to that.

"Well that would be nice." i said flirty.

"Yeah Maria and I are might go to the beach."

"Oh. Maria?" I felt my heart drop into my stomach.

"Ya that's my girl. She's so down to earth." 

"Jake I gotta go." I hung up before he could say anything else.  There goes me talking to Jake about my love for him.

A couple of days had passed and I hadn't spoken to Jacob. I didn't want to interfere if he really had feelings for Maria. What if Jacob had feeelings for Maria as deep as he had feelings for me? I was in my room the other day thinking about how I felt when Edward left me. Jacob was there for me the entire time.  I want to be there for him. I think it would be best if I talked to Jacob. It would be nice if Jacob and I spent some time together.

Jacob and I decided to go out to a resturant. It wasn't a date...I think. When we got to the resturant I should have known Jake would have brought Maria with him.  I knew I shouldn't be mad but I was.

"Hey Bells." Jake said.

"Hey Bells." Maria said.

"It's Bella!." I said. Maia wasn't allowed to call me that. She didn't know me and I didn't want her to.

"What's wrong Bella?" Jacob asked.

"Nothing." I wanted to tell him just not with her right there.

The waiter came and escorted us to our seats.

We took our seats and grabbed our menus. It was complete silence. I was glad for the silence, that way Jacob and Maria wasn't able to flirt.

"I have to go to the bathroom." Maria announced as if anyone cared.

She got up and headed towards the bathroom. As soon as she was out of side Jacob began to question me.

"Ok Bella what's the deal?"

"Nothing Jake, just drop it."

"No Bella tell me right now. You know you can tell me anything. So what's up?"

I knew I had to tell him. This was the only time he was focused on me and not Maria. This would be the right time.

"Jake I don't think Maria is right for you."

"What are you talking about we have loads in common." he tried to convince me.

"I don't see it. She doesn't seem your type." 

"Bella what's really going on?"

"Jake that's it."

I could see Jake getting angry at me.

"Bella the one time you see me with a girl that I like who actually likes me back you try to ruin it. I let you be with Edward! I didn't like it because he was a blood sucking leach who was going to suck the life out of the girl I love! Why can't you let me be happy? Must you always try to break my heart? I can't believe-" I cut him off and said.

" I'M IN LOVE YOU WITH YOU JACOB!" I  couldn't hold it in anymore. I didn't want him to be angry at me. I had to tell him before I didn't have a chance.

Jacob's face was competely in shock and yet confused at the same time. I didn't know if I had made things worse or better. He didn't say anything to me. He didn't say anything at all. That's when Maria came back. 

"I'm back." Maria announced like someone cared yet again.

Jake still didn't say anything. He was still starring. I think I broke him or something.

"Jake are you okay?" Maria asked. I should have been the one to ask him that but I think I've said enough.

"I'll be back." he got up from the table and walked to the bathroom. He left me with Maria.

We didn't speak but she kept starring at me.

We saw jacob come back from the bathroom and he was still looking confused.

"I'm sorry Maria. I have to go. I'm not feeling too well." he gave her a hug. Gave me a look and walked out of the door.

After he left I sat there for about five minutes until Maria got up.

"I'll see ya later Bella." she said 

I just gave her a half smile and she walked out of the door.

I sat there after she left and just stared at the table cloth. What was I thinking? I hurt my best friend for the hundreth time. I felt so selfish. I was only thinking about my feelings. I didn't even think about how this would affect Jake.

I was sitting at the table for about twenty minutes when the waiter came and told me he needed the table for another customer.

I took my time getting up. My body felt really sluggish,and weak. When I got to my car I didn't even put the keys in the engine. I just sat there some more thinking about the recent events that just occured.

After about another twenty minutes I decided I better get home. I rode in silence. I didn't want to hear any songs on the radio. Just me and my thoughts.

Once I got home I went straight to my room wishing Jake was hear so I could apologize for doing that to him.

I wanted to call him but I decided it would be better If I gave him some space. This didn't work out like I planned.

*****This chap is dedicated to my little sisters Anna and Mariah.******