Random Shit Cause Why Not...

PAIN

TO MARIO AND RASTA... IF YOUR READING THIS THEN DON'T CONTINUE IF U WANT ME TO STAY HAPPY AND ALIVE...

When u are so sad u smile and laugh...

When u feel like dieing but live for those u love... it's torture

When u cry but u think they are tears of joy...

When u have a knife next to u but u know it will pain the one u love just as much as it hurts u if not more...

When u think of death every second knowing that someone might pull u and ur sis apart...

WHEN UR SCARED OF BEING ALONE...

when u wish for death but u just want someone to hug u and mean it with love when they say "I love you..."

Roses are red, violets are blue I wanna die but I don't want to hurt you....

Red is my favorite color because it's the color of blood...

Black is my favorite color because I see it all day long...

White is my favorite color because I've never seen it yet....

And pink is my favorite color because it's the color that represents what is always hurting in my body...

Just the thought of losing your sis when u don't want to be lonely nor forgotten really hurts when she reads this she is gonna say "I'm always gonna be here for u dnt worry big bro" and I will reply "I know u will be but what happens if u die early or even worse I do and then u forget about me...." I have no feeling...

I warned everyone that I'm bad luck and a shit ton of drama and they demanded me not to leave at moments like this where one is jelouse but also sad when one is crazy but yet sane where one feels love but also friendly.... where one loves another so much he acts like he cares about their relationship even though it's crushing him secretly on the inside.... When he says he's happy for u because he is but at the same time... dealing with a shit ton of pain thinking about losing u... this is one of my everyday feelings....