it was difficult to let him go, I can't look at him in the eye because of the teardrop sliding down my face.
" diane, Don't Go.... please... just please don't go... IM BEGGING YOU" he took my hands, slighlty squeezing it , his puffy eyes fixed with mine, making my stomach tie knots of guilt and sorrow, I almost change my mind , almost
" you cant go... " he shook his head repeatedly..
i shut my eyes, close in an attempt to prevent myself from crying but I failed.... I TOTALLY FAILED~!
" I have to, I need to..." i said slowly , my voice is cracking
he slowly licked his lips moving closer to me " No.. Please don't leave me"
his hands moved to my face and he rubbed my cheeks with his palms staring into my eyes , his eyes shifted back and forth and i had to look away, I couldn't stand seeing him like that
He drew my face back toward his, I took a deep breth , putting my hand on top of his and i rubbed his hands softly then shook my head....
I kiss him... a long passionate kiss... this will be our last kiss today.. i have to leave now ... I thought
Slowly a pulled his hands away from my skin dropping them by his sides
" I Love You .... Goodbye IAN" i said ... as i turn around, I told my self not to look back... i knew if i did I would regret it..
Still something forced me to turn my head and get a glimpse of him one last time...
Drenched in the rain, He walked towards me to reach my hand " plese !!! Don't Go" he said... his voice is cracking even through I could see his aching eyes as they stared at me... he looked Hopeless
" Ian... i have to ... i have to go because its for our own good" i said while crying ... i choked back teh tears turning my head away as I ran to the Opposite side...and turn around again and Mouthed him I LOVE YOU..
" DON'T SAY YOU LOVE WHEN INFACT YOU DONT!!!!!! dONT SAY YOU LOVE WHEN YOU ARE LEAVING ME BEHIND!!!!" he Shouted!
"Im Sorry Ian... I'll be back" i said even though he can't hear it.
