When Justin drifted to sleep I pulled up a chair and held his hand and laid my head down on his arm then i drifted off to sleep. It felt like I was only asleep for a couple of hours and then the doctor came in. He shook my shoulder "Hana" he whispered as he motioned me outside. I nodded and let go of Justin's hand as he was still asleep. The doctor and i stood in the hall he took a breath and I could tell from his face it isn't looking good. "So what now" I asked him bluntly. "Well we can try chemo and see how he reacts to it but he might be just too sick" the doctor said. I looked down. "Now since the cancer has spread to his lungs he's going to need to wear a oxygen machine at all times" I just looked down and tears started to well up in my eyes. "I suggest you take the next flight home and do chemo treatments from home. And he's going to need to take it easy but you can live life as normal with just a few exceptions" the doctor said with a faint smile. "I'll call my dad and she when the next flight out and I'll let you know" I said and he nodded. The doctor walked away and I instantly dialed my dads phone. "Hey dad um they are sending Justin home, and they said in a couple days we need the first flight back to LA " "How is he feeling?" I mumbled. I tried to compose my self "he's still sleeping" I cried. "Are they going to try chemo this time?" My dad said I could here his voice breaking. "They are going to try home chemo treatments and he's going to have to wear oxygen all the time but the doctor said he could go on and live as life is normal" then there was silence on the phone. "Well I better get back to him" I said to my dad I could tell he was crying. "Okay I'll set up the flights and I'm going to come down there and see him after Eden wakes up" after I heard Edens name I started to break down. "Listen we will get through this alls we need to do is pray" "let's do it now" my dad suggested. I bowed my head. "Dear god please be with Justin in this troubling time and hope to bring him to great health. Amen." My dad said on the phone and then I said my good byes and hanging up the phone. I walked back into the room and I saw that Justin was awake. "Hey" I smiled he smiled back. "That was my dad" I said sitting down next to him. "How's Eden" he said in a raspy. "She was still sleeping my dad said he's going to bring her up later " then he smiled but then couched and gasped for air and coughed again I ran to get him some water. After he took a sip he groaned "thanks" then he took a breath and laid back down. "How are you feeling" I asked him. "Honestly I'm scared" he said nestling into his pillow. He motioned me to come lay with him "my cancer won't bite I'm not contagious" he snickered. I smiled and nestled into his shoulder. "How are you" he whispered "honestly scared" I said starting to tear up. "Shh it's okay, let it out" Justin whispered in my ear kissing my forehead. "We will get through this its just one little thing we have to live with" he whispered. I looked up at him and I couldn't resist kissing his lips. Then the doctor knocked and we broke apart. Justin put his arm around me as he walked in. "So Mr. Bieber how are you feeling?" The doctor asked. "I'm tired and weak but I'm okay" he mumbled then gasped for air. "Well we have desired that the best thing for you is to go home and be with your family and start home chemo treatments" he said looking at his chart. "And when are the tubes going away?" Justin joked. "Well that's the thing they are not going away any time soon, the cancer has spread to your lungs causing you to gasp for air. " Justin just looked up at me I could see fear, I grabbed his hand and squeezed it. "You will carry it and wheel it like a backpack and wear it at all times." The doctor continued to explain. "I'll get your discharge papers and you can get changed and you will be in your way home. " the doctor said we nodded and walked out. "I brought you some clothes do you need help changing?" "No I can do it"he mumbled and smiled. He took his bag of clothes and picked up his oxygen tank and he wheeled in the bathroom. I sat on his bed and packed up then I heard a knock at the door. It was my dad and Eden. "Hey" he yelled "there's someone here that missed you guys. "Hey baby" I got up and whisked her off the ground. I held her close and kissed her head. "Where is he?" My dad asked. "He's in the bathroom changing" then shortly after I heard the door open. Then Justin appears in a baggy navy sweatshirt and soccer warmup sweat pants and Nike roushes. "Look who's here?" I said in a high pitched baby voice. "Eden smiled and yelled "DaDa" holding out her and for him to pick her up he dropped his oxygen pack and slowly picked her up. He smiled and kissed her cheek. Then he swayed and grabbed the wall. "Okay I think he need to take things slowly" I said taking her from her arms "sorry" he mumbled. Are you ready to go home?" I said in a peppy voice. "Our flight leaves in an hour so we better start heading to the airport my dad said. I looked at Justin and he just gave a faint smile. It's going to take a long time for me to get used to seeing him with those in his nose. We all walked out to the car and to the airport. Justin slept through the whole flight. I held Eden in my lap and alls I could think about is what now?
