Our bags from the tour bus were all being sent to our house. When we arrived back home I saw that Justin was drained. I pulled Edens car seat out and went over to give him his oxygen pack. He looked at me and gave me a faint smile but I could tell it was forced. He grabbed my hand and our hands entertained as we entered our home. It felt so nice to be in our home for the first time in six months! Our house was filled with little Christmas decorations that needed to be taken down and toys on the ground. "Home Sweet Home" I whispered looking up at Justin. We kissed. And then let go. " so when does the treatments start. Dr. Johnson said tomorrow morning" I said taking Eden out of her car seat and say her on the rug to play. "Great" I heard him mumble under his breath. "You should go lay down and I'll just start unpacking" I insist pulling on his sleeve. He nodded and began to slow roll his pack and himself up the stairs. But when he got a quarter of the way up he started to get out of breath and cough. I ran to his side trying to calm him down. "I'm okay" he gasped. As he sat on the stairs. Putting his face in his palms. I sat next to him rubbing his back. "Hey, it's okay to be frustrated or scared" I cried looking at him. He looked at the ground" we can just move our room to the bedroom by the kitchen. It will just take a few hours" he huffed. "Hana it's not okay, I can barley get around my own house I can't even hold my own daughter!" Justin yelled and got up and walked into the living room. "Justin, please just talk to me we can work this out its hard on me to!" I just want to help you " I cried starting to tear up. I turned around. Looking at the pale grey wall of the living room we used to laugh in, smile in, and brought our daughter home to. Those memories were getting pained on the walls as I held myself crying. I could hear Justin come over to me he held my shoulders with his cold hands. I turned around and I just held him close as I cried into his shoulder. He kissed the top of my head. "I don't want you to leave us" I whispered looking up into his Carmel eyes. "I'm not going anywhere" he whispered. He hugged and I squeezed him and I didn't want to let go. I could smell his cologne on his chest. I just wanted this moment to last forever. It felt like before. Then I heard Eden crying in the other room. I slowly let go and we walked to go get her. She was cooing and laughing when she saw us walk in. "Dada " she said over and over again. He smiled and sat down on the couch and I handed her to him. She laid her head down on his shoulder. I sat down next to him and stroked her hair as she fell asleep on on his shoulder.
