Destroy them all~Jeff the kill love story part 2 (finished)

Chaptet 27

3 days left. I was getting scared and antsy. I kept drifting away in my dreams to my real body. Never moving my I there, everyone was a mess with out me. Jeff the worst I've never seen him like this before. He just cries and kills showers and cries and kills and over and over. He wasn't eating. He was so skinny. Rose was upset all the time. She would cut her self but it did nothing after a while because of her heeling power. She'd cry and cut and drink and smoke. She was a a mess. Asher was trying to stay strong. But when no one was awake. He'd cry and cry and cry. He'd get high and go out to the bar. Coming home and being sober to tend to everyone else. I was ruining them.... But this is morning. They'll get over it soon. Then they can get back to normal. And I'll be happy.

"Baby girl it's time to get up" Kris whispered and shook me a bit. I stretched yawning and rubbed my eyes looking at him

"Mmmmm why time is it" I asked lightly the dim light of out side seeping threw my blinds

"7, we have school come on princess it's hump day! Then our anniversary lands on a Friday" he smiled so happy as he got up and went to go shower quickly. I got up and slipped on my underwear and a big sweater. I grabbed one of Kris's smokes and lit it. I don't smoke, well I stopped but I really needed this after seeing my baby's like that and Jeff the way he is I couldn't help myself.

When kris came out I had finished the cigaret and went to shower. When I got out I blow dried my hair which was now a brighter red then the beginning of all this mess, my eyes were a bright hazel now. I was still pale as fuck and short too.

I got dressed and finished my make up then came out "okay baby I'm ready" I said and he smiled kissing my head as he left down stairs first. I went under my bed and grabbed a pack of smokes I had hidden when I quit. I walked down stairs the pack I'm my back and sat down at the table where mom was already cooking us breakfast.

"Good morning mom" I smiled kissing her cheek and sitting down

"Good morning dear" she replied and put two plates if bacon, eggs, toast and mixed fruit.

"Oh man this looks so good. Thanks mum" kris said. He called my mom mum since we were friends

"Yummy. Thanks mom" I said as she pored me coffee and kris. We ate and my mom looked at me a little funny until we were done. Kris got up and headed for the car "I'll meet you there baby" I said and as he left my mom looked at me

"What's wrong ours smoking again" she said and I questioned how she knew everything

"Just a little school stress" I say and get up putting on my spiked black platform heels that match my tight corset dress and ripped thigh tights and head to the car sitting in as kris drives as I lean my head on his window thinking

"You okay baby?" He asks and I nod flashing him a small smile before turning on the aux cored and listening to my music.

Once we got to school I stepped out and walk as kris followed  and held. I needed a cigaret but I didn't want him to worry so I told him I had to pee I'll meet him in first. He nodded and walk off as I went to the bathroom and lit a smoke by the window "wouldn't see you as a smoker" I heard and turned to the window

"What are you doing here?" I asked Jeff as he smiled

"I couldn't stop thinking about you" he said and then something clicked in my head. Maybe I could start again with Jeff from the beginning. Down here. He was a lot younger but so was I. Me 16 him 18. I could start again. But what about kris.... Maybe something happens. Maybe maybe I I... This Jeff isn't even real

"Well don't it was a mistake" I say and he looks at me funny

"Didn't feel like a mistake" he smiled and I bit him lip a light blush on my face

"You're right it wasn't" I said turning and kissing him again. I fucking loved him and. I fake guy could change that but I know if I'm gonna stay there's no going back to Jeff "sorry" I said putting my smoke out "I have to go. I'm not good for you. Just leave" I say and walk out going to my locker as the bell rings.

My heart is pounding when I get to class and I just want to cry. Maybe staying here isn't a good idea. Or maybe it is right. I have no idea... Should I go home and try to fix the years of fucked up. OR stay here and love what I have...

I take out my coke bottle of coke and whiskey and drink it. I needed it bad. I couldn't think straight and nothing made sense this day started of shit an it would continue to be shit. I hated it so much I hated the face that this was my life always complicated fucked up had the one time something good happens it gets all twisted then I'm gifted with the chance to start again and I'm fucked over yet another time. Why! Why is this my life. Why did my mom just not keep me and I could have had a normal pasta life. But no no nope I had to fucking have this shitty human one. I hated my life. "ISABEL!" I hear my name being yelled rather impatiently

"Y-yes" I snapped back and looked at our teacher

"Have you filled in your course selection sheet?" The teacher asked and I noddles standing up and giving her the signed sheet. "Smoking again" she whispers and I look down "if you need to talk about anything you know I'm always here" she smiled and I smiled back walking to my desk.

I can't keep zoning out like that. I need to stop wallowing on self potty and grow some balls and take control of my life I did it twice haven't i. Why not hug do it again. And this town hopefully it's less bloody and painful.

All through the school day I filled out a small book of way I can talk it out with myself and find a way to get threw with this. But first thins first I must make a decision. Which is impossibly hard. Can't I just not. I wanted to leave it as a surprise but....

Just then everything went black my head hit dizzy and then it was black "hey mom" I heard but couldn't see or move I wasn't sure what was going on "it's been a month and you're still not up. You're still so beautiful. I really miss you. Dads done some really bad things but I don't blame him. He's busy upset. But I wish I could see you awake so dad could be happy again. Masky thinks you need to choose to live. He says you're stuck in both worlds and that's not good. So please mom choose fast. I miss you" I heard and felt my had get warm. I squeezed and I could feel a jump "mom! Mom can you here me wake up mom mom"

"Lizzy lizzy!" The voice changed and everything started feeling weird as I opened my eyes to see kris. "Are you okay what happned!" He asked and I stood up

"Nothing I'm fine. I ah I just didn't eat today" I say and he sighs.

"Okay. Well come one  I'm taking you home" he says and I nod going to the car. But of course we got food first.

As we drove I thought. Every time I get close  to Jeff I fall back to reality. Maybe. Maybe I'm making decisions by what I do with Jeff. Kill him I stay. Love him I go... 3 more days. Let's do this