Poems For Feelings

They Scream Words In My Head

When I wake up, I tell myself
Smile, try to be happier than yesterday
Once I take a shower I say
Don't..I know how tempting it can be..bit don't harm
Once I get dressed I say
You look so beautiful and fashionable today
Once I do my makeup i say
I look so pretty with and without makeup
Once I walk downstairs I say
Today will be a good day
Once I arrive at school I say
I am ready to learn
Once I go to Chior I say
I am a decent singer
Once I go to lunch I say
I am the right size and can eat
Once I get home I say
I had a good day
Once I go to bed I say
Night, I will make tomorrow better

But in reality the voices in my head say
- No matter how much you smile, you will always be sad and depressed
-you need to self harm, it helps distract from me
- that outfit makes you look fat and slutty
- not all of the makeup in the world can cover just one pimple on your face
-you are going to have a terrible day and you know it
- you suck at singing with you know it
-are you kidding me!? You are so fat! Don't eat a bite of food, who cares if eventually you will be a walking skeleton? Just get skinny
- you had a terrible day
- Sweet nightmares my darling little puppet