alone

008

"huh?"

he laughed.

"I'm going to get ready, you get ready too."

he left to go to the bathroom.

"did he just.."

I felt my heart skip a beat.

"shit."

I cursed under my breath.

8:11am
i arrived at school.

wonwoo had other classes since he is older than me.

so that means I had to be alone.

again.

he told me to wait for him and don't get near the bullies.

but that seemed completely impossible

"hey, bitch."

queenka. again.

she pulled on my hair and pushed my against the lockers. the metal hit the wounds on my head and side.

I groaned in pain.

"mind if you spare me some change?"

shit I didn't have money.

"I-I--"

"you what?"

"I don't have money."

she scoffed in disbelief.

"liar!"

she grabbed my bag and threw everything out of there. searching for some spare change that was in my bag.

"ugh! useless!"

she kicked my books everywhere, I watched them as they scattered all around the floor. everyone watched.

"better bring money tomorrow or else!"

or else what?

I really wanted to say that. but didn't have the guts or courage to.

12:32pm
lunch. this time the seniors have the same lunch as us. finally.

I saw wonwoo with his friends.

he seemed happy.

I smiled and turned my heel around. and walked off to the rooftop.

I arrived on top of the rooftop. it was a breezy day. the sun rarely peeked out, it was only hiding behind the clouds.

the trees danced around. the dead leaves flew around.

it was peaceful.

I enjoyed that moment.

I leaned on the edge. looking over the view at the bottom level of the school, the entrance. I see students walking in and out.

friends laughing together.

couples hugging and intertwining fingers together.

gross.

"you thinking of anything?"

a voice pops up behind me. which makes me jump in fear.

it was wonwoo.

"yah! you scared me!"

he laughed at my actions and stood next to me. looking over the view too.

"you know. after mingyu died. I tried to commit suicide."

I widen my eyes and face him. he was staring off into the sky.

"then.. I realized that I couldn't do it. I was such a coward, afraid to die. but I wanted to do it. but decided not to."

his smile fades.

"over the times, I finally came to the choice of moving on. yes, I missed him dearly. but, it's natural, for someone to die. and I would eventually cry about it at times but remember there are other people around me to comfort me.."

he faced me and smiled again.

"I hope that you will realize that you have a reason to live. I don't want you to end up like how I was, depressed. afraid. alone."

that last word triggered me.

"what is I already ended up like how you were?"

this one is longer for you guys
if you read this actual crap
I have to sleep I got school and it's 12:00am so gnight.
Hope you like reading my shitty books and chapters!