Me and Morgan got coffee the day after he got home. We just ate a quick lunch and had a small cup of coffee then went to go see a movie that I wasn't going to pay attention to but Morgan really wanted to see it so I said;
"Fine we can go see the movie and I'll laugh at all the right parts and cry at the right moment."
"This is why I love you Paris."
"Yah I know." I said with a big smile.
After the movie was over Morgan drove me back to my apartment. I didn't get much sleep because of Tommy constantly waking up. He was breaking in two top teeth which caused him to repeatedly wake up in the middle of the night.
"What are you doing here?" I whispered as I crouched down and reached the level of Tommy's car seat.
Whenever Ms. Anderson brought Tommy over she would never bring his car seat. I didn't own a car so I had no where to drive. Anyways, it was easier for her to bring carry in then to take his car seat out and put it back in her car with his bags and blankets.
"He is just holding me back." Were the first words out of many that I read.
I brought Tommy into my apartment, let Baylor out of his kennel, and then out Tommy into his crib.
"I love him. I truly love him but I cant take care of him. I keep leaving him with you more often and for longer time periods. His father wants me again. I need to go to save our love. I am signing all of our writes over to you. I left the papers in his baby bag. Again, I love Tommy. I always have and will. I am just not ready for him. I never signed out his birth certificate when he was born so I left it for you. I want you to be his legal parent. I don't want Tommy to ever know about me. I don't want him to come chase me as a teenager when he finds out that I am his birth mother. One more thing, I don't want him in a foster care or a group home. I left him with you because you truly love him more than I ever could. When I would pick him up from you, I would bring him to a daycare where I would leave him there all day until it was time to bring him to your house. During that time I would be working. At night when I brought him to you, I would be at home. I just couldn't do it. I tried. And tried. And tried, but I couldn't. So I found you. Someone who could take care of him. When his father wanted to run away I couldn't just leave Tommy at the doorstep of a stranger or the adoption center, I felt like I had to leave him with you because he knew you. A confident young woman. Every month, I will send you a sum of money. I have enough money to pay for your house utilities and send you money for food until Tommy enters school. Take care of him for me Paris."
She was right, I was more of a mother to Tommy then she ever was.
Thank you for reading. I don't know what people call school when you are just starting. Where I live we call it elementary but some areas call it primary school. Sorry if you don't understand what I am trying to say. Anyways thanks for reading:)
