To the Moon and Back

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry. 

I'm sorry I'm not enough. 

I'm sorry I cannot mend your broken bones and heal your scars. 

I'm sorry I'm not there for you when you need me the most. 

I'm sorry the tears you shed are not wiped away by me. 

I'm sorry that you lay awake in bed at night, wanting to die, and I am not there to comfort you. 

I'm sorry when you leave the bathroom you lie that you're throat isn't burning.

I'm sorry and I know I'm not good enough for you. 

I'm sorry that you deserve every star in the galaxy and I can give you nothing but my broken love for you. 

I'm sorry that you cover your arms and say you're just cold. 

I'm sorry I put you before myself.

I'm sorry I'm not helping you through everything. 

I'm sorry I'm not there to hold your hand and tell you everything is going to be okay.

I'm sorry that I'm trying my hardest and I haven't made a difference. 

I'm sorry I lie awake at night and worry of what you might be doing to yourself.

I'm sorry that I don't eat because I can't be with you to make sure you're okay. 

I'm sorry that you fell in love with someone who can never make you feel better. 

I'm sorry for crying myself to sleep because the thought of losing you would tear me apart and eat me alive. 

I'm sorry that I am no match against the demons that live inside your head. 

I'm sorry for loving you with everything in me.

I'm sorry.