Even As My Sky Turns To Gray... I Still Love You

Chapter 2

* 6 months later after the accident*

I wakeup to this constant beeping sound and i turn over in bed to find where it was coming from. I looked at the clock it read

2:30am

The beeping wasnt my alarm because I didnt have to be up for another 5 hours for work. So I slowly got up and groaned cuz my head and back was killed me because all the shift a this restaurant was killing me. I searched for my phone as the beeping stopped but started up again and I seen my little brother's name flash across my screen ( Kookie ) and I was thinking to myself why is he calling me knowing that he should be in the next room sleeping and not calling me so early in the morning. I swiped the screen nearly blinding myself because of the brightness of the screen of the phone. I groaned as I answered "Kookie, why are you calling me when you should be in bed sleeping because you have school in a few hours and your dance teacher isnt gonna like you being late again." Then line was quiet and I just heard breathing and as I sat up I knew instantly something was wrong and that worried me.

"Kookie are you there? Answer Me! This better not be one of your pranks because for one its to early and two I dont find this funny at all," I said into the phone but Jungkook knows my threaths towards him are never real and he's never afraid of them. Then finally the other end I can hear people talking and someone comes onto the line "Hello? Hello? Is this.... (the stranger pulls the phone away from his ear to read the name on the screen) uhhh Lara? Hello? Hello? Hello? I could've sworn I heard another voice on the other end," as he hangs up and said the last part to himself. And then it clicked in his head that he remembered hearing the name "Lara" before but where and that boy passed out drunk on the bar stool he had seen him before but he couldn't quite place it. Lara sat in her bed before she can even respond to the stranger's question he already hung up but what's worse is that Jungkook didn't answer his phone but another person had his phone now maybe something happened and she has to find out but first she'll call back to his phone to see if Jungkook will answer or that stranger would tell her where she can find her brother.

I sit patiently as the phone continued to ring but no answer. After the third time I called Jungkook's phone someone and not him had answered his phone. " Uh hello? Kookie is that you?" My voice is shaky because for some reason Im expecting the worst knowing someone else had his phone. Finally that same stranger's voice answers, " Hello? Lara? Are you this boy's mother or sister? I was calling because he's passed out drunk and the bar closing and they need someone to come and take him home." I was shocked. I didnt know Jungkook drank let alone walk into a bar. Yes he's been very moody lately and yes he's been secretive, not really talking to me anymore but he was in some bar passed out.

"Yes this Lara. Im his sister. Where can I find my brother," I said with anger in my voice. The stranger gives me the address to the bar and that he'll be there when I arrive, then he hangs up. Fuming and I get up out bed to change and thinking of every punishment Im going to give Jungkook for sneaking out the house and for him not telling me he's been drinking. As I rushed down stairs to my car, I began thinking of why was he becoming so reckless the past 2 months and stopped talking to me all together. Was it something I did? Am I smothering him? Does it mean he doesn't want to live with me anymore?

I arrive at the bar which is just five blocks from my home and just three block from Jungkook's dance studio he goes to. As I arrived I scanned the whole room and seen a couple near the back close to the pool tables watching another couple play. And only three people sitting at a round table close to the bar and that when I spotted Jungkook slumped over, head laying on the bar counter and in front of him was a boy who look like he could be 15 with bright orange hair and a slight smile on his face as his eyes turned into small little crescent and hint of a blush on his face, all the while watching my brother with admiration as he wiped cups clean with an old dirty rag.

Next to him was another guy about my age but maybe older with a beautiful side profile as his back was towards me. He had on a regular white T-shirt that you can see how broad his shoulders were and blue jeans and his hair was this chocolate brown and its looked so soft that I felt the need to run my finger into the velvety locks. And the opposite of my brother was and another guy who's pale skin shines in the smoke filled, dim light of the bar and who's hair was this pale mint green which complemented his skin tone. He look like he had a scowl on his face and it look from where I was standing that he was trying to shake my brother's shoulder to wake him up or at lease get him to lift head long enough for the orange haired bartender to wipe the spot clean.

As my brother start to stir from his drunkin state, he starts to look around even at the mint green hair guy and even the chocolate brown hair guy who look oddly familiar and the orange hair guy never took his eyes off of him. Not even when i walked up to them and called out Jungkook's name. All but the bartender who eyes are still on my brother, turned to look at me as I stood there with a scared but confused look on my face.

The first to speak up was the familiar looking guy, "Hello you must Lara. Im Kim Seokjin and this guy who's next to your brother is Min Yoongi and he's a Tutor to your brother and this little guy behind the counter is Park Jimin who seems to take a liking to your brother." Jimin (orange hair guy) blushed even a bright red as he threw his towel at the said Kim Seokjin.

"Hello," I said after a few seconds of awkwardness. "Kookie, get your things this instant cause Im taking you home right now," I said with anger and frustration in my voice. Jungkook flinched at my words because never had I raised my voice at him or talked to him with such harshness in his whole life. "Sis, I can explain. Just please hear me," Jungkook said as his words were slurring and he tried to stand to reach out to me but he stumbled back onto the stool as Yoongi caught before he could fall sideways. "Kookie, I dont want to hear it. Come on we will talk about this when you sober up, but at this moment I want you home now," Im slowly getting angry as I reached for his arm to pull him up off the stool. He snatches his arm away with this disgusted look on his face as he croaked out, "Sis there's no talking to you just go home. Ill stay at Yoongi hyung's house for a while as I figure out what I want to do." I stood there shocked as he slapped me in the face with his words and it took me by surprised. "Kookie! I wont say it again, Get you butt into the car and how dare you disrespect me in front of your friends. Are you showing off for them? And why won't you look at me when Im talking to you? Why do you keep pushing me away," as my voice started to break on the verge of tears falling down.

Now a few peoples are staring at us but mostly me because Im making a scene by screaming at my drunkin little brother. I was fed up with the lies and Ive been doing right by my brother since our parents aren't there to take care of him. Why does he have to be selfish? He isnt the only one hurting inside wishing things were back to the way they used to be. Doesnt he realize that I still cry myself to sleep into my pillow so he wont hear me? I still wake up with night terrors of the accident that I never witnessed but in the dreams it felt like I was in the car when it happened.

"Ok, Jungkook if you've been doing what you like and keeping all your lies," I said throwing my hand into the air continuing on my rant "If its so tough for you to live with me thats fine! Go stay with your friend but remember this you're not the only one who's hurting," now the tears are rolling down "But Jungkook if you think for a second to leave me, I dont want you to ever come back," as I finished the tears still continued to fall and Jungkook still never picked up head to look at me but his friends stood there shocked by my words. With a few moments of silence a few people still stared and a few hushed voices here and there. Seokjin finally speaks. "Lara, its not my place to get into a family matter but please at lease hear what Jungkook has to say before you tell him, that he's dead to you," Seokjin's voice is pleading with me to listen and hear the whole story. "I have nothing I want to hear because if it was important he would have told me and not coming running into a bar and keep lies from me," I spit out. Jungkook looked at me with sadness filled eyes but the words that came out of his mouth will change me forever.