Since 2009///Phanfiction

Goodbye

I called cat tears streaming down my face as I sat on the hotel bed. I told her everything she stayed silent it was kind of hard to talk to cat I couldn't talk to her as easily as I could talk to Phil. I finally asked her "can I move in with you?, I mean just until I find my own place" "yes!" she almost spat. "I mean sure" she said "ok" I said as I fiddled  with my jacket. I just need to pack and I'll come how about next week. "ok" she said and ended the call.

Believe me, the last thing I wanted to do was move in with cat. But what else was I going to do? I started packing up my things right away. London was just to depressing without Phil being with me. The thing that hurt the most was the fact that Phil was just 2 blocks away yet I couldn't be with him. I started crying just thinking about Phil this couldn't completely ruin us, could it? Dan could make him remember him right? He could make them all ok again, right? A voice in My head started to yell at me Dan their is no way Phil will magically remember you, you need to give up. "Ok" I whispered to myself excepting defeat as I continued packing

~Next week
I finally got the courage to make a new video, it didn't explain anything that was happening. I couldn't do that, not yet at least. After it was uploaded I decided to check phil's YouTube account he had 4 new videos looking over at the clock and seeing that I still had a lot of time before I had to catch a plane I decided to watch them. After finding myself laughing through all of them I suddenly felt my heart drop. I can never be with him again wake up to his amazingly beautiful smile I hit myself in the head as though I was physically trying to get these thoughts out of my head. "I need to leave" I said to myself grabbing my stuff and heading to L.A

Getting onto the plane was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do leaving Phil here, by himself it was all to much but I had to do it he won't ever remember me.